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04. The Dirt

Nervosa
by Showbread



 

 

I want to open up my guts
And crawl inside to make a home
And nestle up inside the steaming softness silent and alone
I want to pull apart the things you think that matter
Cause to me nothing is everything, just a vacant listless clatter
And I bury myself underneath myself
I will not reach or call for help
I want to do this on my own I want to feel it in my bones
I want to know the ugliness that wraps around me
So I open wide and die inside
Forget the things the world said I could be

There’s nothing for me
Nothing I want to be
And I am nothing now and free
The nothing's in love with me

Don’t you think it’s funny how the dirt just piles up on me?
And I’m being crushed but baby hush
You know it doesn’t matter very much
To know the nastiness and roll around in piles of this
And yawn into the stinking hiss then close it tightly in my fists
When I am gone I’ll leave no bones, no dust, no death, no love, no home
Just emptiness and all of this is nothing nothing nothing, I’m alone
So wave goodbye and close your eyes and never take off your disguise
The world is ugly when you take it off, go on and live your life

And leave me lying here the world will never shed a tear
For idiots who die like us and never ever know something that’s real

 

 

 

 

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This Thursday, February 19, 2026
SINGLES
Marty Magehee Comin' Down - Single (independent)

This Friday, February 20, 2026
ALBUMS
Chosen Road American Morning: Side A - EP [Thoroughbred]
Elevation Worship SO BE IT [Provident]
Justin Mitchell The Reset EP [Kingdom Impact]
Lexly Nirvana 340° EP [Syntax]
Ginny Owens Different Kind of Water (independent)

SINGLES
29:11 Worship, Zion Rempel And Is To Come - Single [DREAM]
Paul Baloche Yes, We Believe - Single [Integrity]
Holly Brand I Know Somebody - Single [Integrity]
Chris Caro Reset - Single [Syntax]
Aaron Cole Peace At Last - Single [Provident/Sony]
Dex the nerd who loves Jesus Buckle Up - Single [Syntax]
DOE Black Boy (feat. Jon Batiste) - Single [Provident/Sony]
EJ Swavv Covenant Girl - Single [Syntax]
Grace Graber Gratitude - Single (independent)
Kelo & DreBeeze Da Godson Better Made ft. LXGENDXRYREG & VVS Big Rock - Single [Syntax]
David Leonard Well Done - Single [Provident/Sony]
Heather Suzanne, Ian Austin Mad - Single [Ocean House]
Hillside Recording Jesus You're Holy - Single [Ocean House]
Limoblaze Way (feat. Jackie Hill Perry) - Single [Reach]
Run51 Feels - Single [DREAM]

Next Friday, February 27, 2026
ALBUMS
Jonathan Cain untitled EP [The Fuel]
Amanda Janson Sinner to Saint [Pure Mosaic]
Mainstream Worship Dwelling Place (Live) - EP [DREAM]

SINGLES
Leanna Crawford & Seph Schlueter Water Into Wine - Single [Provident/Sony]
F.L.O.G.I.C Selah - Single (independent)
Freedom Church Holy Spirit (Great Things) - Single [DREAM]
Glass Hearts Worship I Saw a Fire - Single (independent)
Hulvey Automatic (feat. Connor Price) - Single [Reach]
Michael Gabriel Monroe Heaven Sings Holy - Single [Provident/Sony]
Tenroc Mourning 2 Dancing (feat. Tori Kelly & Jon Keith) - Single [Provident/Sony]


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