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06. Not The Way I Want To Be
Album: Super Heavy Dreamscape
Artist: Blackball
         
 

Well I'd like to help you now
but I think I'm just too broken
To rebuild again would cost me more
of all these things I choke in

And it's not the way I want it to be
but I'm blind in the places I thought I could see
And weak in the mind and the soul of the man
And it's hard to explain cuz' I don't understand
I guess I'm weaker than I wanted to be
weaker than I thought I was
There's nothing in the world that's free
it's all too much for me
And it's not the way I want it to be
cuz' what I wanted to be I just can't find within me

Well I'd love to help you out
but how could you hear me now
When you see me fall
and watch it all
I don't think that I know how

And it's not the way I want it to be
and I wonder if you're cut by the ways that I bleed
So I wish that I could stand all alone
but there's no part of the body that move on it's own
So I guess it's too late to complain about
you heard enough of the truth that you figured it out
And it's not the way I want it to be
cuz' what I wanted to be I just can't find within me

This is not the way I want it to be
I might be the only part of Christ that somebody sees
And it's the only hope I know how to give you
and it's just too much for me to live up to
And I never wanted to be the one you see
I'm not the best one for showing you the things I believe
and it's not the way I want it to be
but what I wanted to be I just can't find within me


 

More Lyrics from Super Heavy Dreamscape

  1. 01. Doesn't Matter
  2. 02. One More Sucker
  3. 03. Get Outta Here
  4. 04. Wither
  5. 05. Everything Is Good
  6. 06. Not The Way I Want To Be
  7. 07. There Goes The One
  8. 08. If You Were Mine
  9. 09. Super Heavy Dreamscape
  10. 10. Chasing Everyone Away
  11. 11. Heart, Soul, Groove [Instrumental]
  12. 12. Wish I Didn't Know
                 
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This Friday, October 30
ALBUMS
Beach Chapel A Special Place In Heaven (independent)
Kirk Franklin I Am What I Am [Uptown]
Lucy Gray By The Water - EP (independent)
The Hyssongs We've Got a Song to Sing [Horizon]
Claire Leslie Who's That Girl? - EP [Capitol CMG]
The Oak Ridge Boys Buried Treasures [Lightning Rod]
Olive Shoots Music Longing and Loss (independent)
Various Artists Songs Inspired By The Chosen: Season 1-5 [Capitol CMG]
Vomitorial Corpulence Martyrdomical Symphonanthem [Rottweiler]

SINGLES
2 Lane Summer How Do I Live - Single [Quartz Hill]
1K Phew & Timbaland Seven Trumpets - Single [Reach]
Bethel Music Greatness (feat. Aubree Archibeck, Martin Smith) - Single [Bethel]
Gracie Binion & Mitch Wong Gloria - Single [BEC]
Lauren Daigle with Preservation Hall Jazz Band Sleigh Ride & Go Tell It On The Mountain - Double Single [Interscope/Capitol]
Will Ellis My Yesterday’s Are Gone - Single (independent)
Forrest Frank What a Life - Single [River House]
goodwill., GodFearin & Xay Hill IN MOTION - Single [Syntax]
Amy Grant To Be Together (feat. CAIN) - Single [Capitol CMG/AG]
I.A.N. Pray For Me - Single [Syntax]
Laura Kaczor Wrapped in Love - Single [Upstream]
Lady Audri My Body - Single [Syntax]
Leem of the Earth The Cavern of Dark - Single [Velvet Blue]
LOUDWERX Bass Go Boom (feat. Magic & Bird, Andy Mineo) - Single [Artist Influence]
Malcolm Rue & A Tribe Apart Omemma - Single [Syntax]
Kevi Morse Is it too late? - Single [Syntax]
Nai and J Follow - Single (independent)
New Wine Worship For Jesus - Single (independent)
Lloyd Nicks Glory (Angels We Have Heard) - Single [Curb]
Blessing Offor Broken Me (from The Chosen Album) - Single [Capitol CMG]
Hunter Plake It's Beginning to Look a lot Like Christmas - Single [BEC]
Chelsea Plank Make Me Willing - Single [Provident/Sony]
Razzie & OnBeatMusic Brick After Brick - Single [Syntax]
Jordan St. Cyr Guide Me Home - Single [BEC]
Carly Ann Taylor How Glorious (Amazing Grace) - Single [Curb]
TobyMac The Hard Times - Single [Capitol CMG]
Phil Wickham SOS (Don’t Let Me Go) - Single [Capitol CMG]
Aaron Williams Abide (Christmas) [feat. Hope Darst] - Single [Provident/Sony]
ZOEgirl I Still Believe - Single (independent)

This Saturday, October 31
SINGLES
Chaotic Resemblance Move - Single (independent)

Next Friday, November 6
ALBUMS
Big Daddy Weave It's Time For Christmas - EP [Curb]
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Come and See - EP (independent)
Meadows DESERT WALKER (CD) [Facedown Records]
Mystical Death Across [Rottweiler]
Chris Tomlin Good News Of Great Joy (Christmas Songs Of Worship) [Capitol CMG]
We Are Messengers Rejoice! (A Celtic Christmas LIVE) [Curb]
Mark Wills Grand Ole Revival [Gaither]

SINGLES
Olivia Lane Hark! The Herald Angels Sing - Single [BEC]
Tasha Layton & Dave Barnes What Should I Get You For Christmas - Single [BEC]
Blessing Offor The King Has Come - Single [Capitol CMG]
Hunter Plake Holly Jolly Christmas - Single [BEC]
River Valley Worship Come and Behold - Single [BEC]
Tae Lamar, YP aka Young Paul The Re-Up - Single [Polished Arrow]
Vineyard Worship Jesus Our Christ - Single [Vineyard]

VINYL
Meadows DESERT WALKER Vinyl [Facedown]

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