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09. Holding Embers
Album: Life Of Defiance
Artist: Call To Preserve
         
 

I said I'd never go back again. I'm holding embers in my hands. It was compromise after compromise. I pulled closer and still nothing satisfied. Every attempt to feel something pushes you further away. I can't recognize myself. I became someone else.

I pushed it further than I thought I ever would. The fool. The coward. The shameful son. I pushed it further just to find I lost myself. I became someone else.

Waking up wanting to start again. I'm holding my head in my hands, but the days trail behind. My eyes forever fixed. My gaze forever fixed. Every attempt to feel something, pushes you further away. I can't recognize myself. I became someone else.

Just cut me down to where I belong. I need the strength to forgive myself. Just cut me down to where I belong. I need the strength to forgive myself.

I pushed it further than I thought I ever would. The fool. The coward. The shameful son. I pushed it further just to find I lost myself. I became someone else.



 

More Lyrics from Life Of Defiance

  1. 01. Life Of Defiance
  2. 02. Drawing Lines on All Sides
  3. 03. Empty Promises
  4. 04. The Weight
  5. 05. Functionary
  6. 06. Desoto
  7. 07. Thin Skin
  8. 08. Across the Isle
  9. 09. Holding Embers
  10. 10. Lost at Sea
  11. 11. Last Look Back
                 
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This Friday, Friday, November 6
ALBUMS
Big Daddy Weave It's Time For Christmas - EP [Curb]
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Come and See - EP (independent)
Meadows DESERT WALKER (CD) [Facedown Records]
Mystical Death Across [Rottweiler]
Chris Tomlin Good News Of Great Joy (Christmas Songs Of Worship) [Capitol CMG]
We Are Messengers Rejoice! (A Celtic Christmas LIVE) [Curb]
Mark Wills Grand Ole Revival [Gaither]

SINGLES
Olivia Lane Hark! The Herald Angels Sing - Single [BEC]
Tasha Layton & Dave Barnes What Should I Get You For Christmas - Single [BEC]
Blessing Offor The King Has Come - Single [Capitol CMG]
Hunter Plake Holly Jolly Christmas - Single [BEC]
River Valley Worship Come and Behold - Single [BEC]
Tae Lamar, YP aka Young Paul The Re-Up - Single [Polished Arrow]
Vineyard Worship Jesus Our Christ - Single [Vineyard]

VINYL
Meadows DESERT WALKER Vinyl [Facedown]

Next Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
Anberlin Currency [Equal Vision]

Next Friday, November 13
ALBUMS
Blanca A Christmas To Remember [Curb]
Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
Jackie Hill Perry Still Blameless (Deluxe) [Velvet Blue]
Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

SINGLES
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

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