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09. Holding Embers
Album: Life Of Defiance
Artist: Call To Preserve
         
 

I said I'd never go back again. I'm holding embers in my hands. It was compromise after compromise. I pulled closer and still nothing satisfied. Every attempt to feel something pushes you further away. I can't recognize myself. I became someone else.

I pushed it further than I thought I ever would. The fool. The coward. The shameful son. I pushed it further just to find I lost myself. I became someone else.

Waking up wanting to start again. I'm holding my head in my hands, but the days trail behind. My eyes forever fixed. My gaze forever fixed. Every attempt to feel something, pushes you further away. I can't recognize myself. I became someone else.

Just cut me down to where I belong. I need the strength to forgive myself. Just cut me down to where I belong. I need the strength to forgive myself.

I pushed it further than I thought I ever would. The fool. The coward. The shameful son. I pushed it further just to find I lost myself. I became someone else.



 

More Lyrics from Life Of Defiance

  1. 01. Life Of Defiance
  2. 02. Drawing Lines on All Sides
  3. 03. Empty Promises
  4. 04. The Weight
  5. 05. Functionary
  6. 06. Desoto
  7. 07. Thin Skin
  8. 08. Across the Isle
  9. 09. Holding Embers
  10. 10. Lost at Sea
  11. 11. Last Look Back
                 
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This Friday, August 28
ALBUMS
Anthem Edition Something's Goin' On - EP [Sonlite]
Bill B. Niche [Syntax]
DOE Shiloh [Provident/Sony]
Every Moment Holy: Prayer Songs, 2026 Q3 Anchoring the Heart in Hope (independent)
Noah Paul Harrison Do Not Go Gentle (Live) [Bethel]
I.A.N. I AM NEW [Syntax]
Prevailer Convalescent [Rottweiler]
John Van Deusen As Long As I Am in the Tent of This Body I Will Make A Joyful Noise Pt. 2 [Anotherland Records]

SINGLES
Elan Brio Made For More - Single [Polished Arrow]
Tim Hughes Make A Way (Live) - Single [Integrity]
Katy Weirich & Jake MacAdam Holy Ground - Single (independent)
Tae Lamar So Alive - Single [Polished Arrow]
John Long Trust In Him - Single (independent)
Adam Michael Pass the Parcel - Single (independent)
m1L, MotionPlus, Alias Molombo Made For More - Single [Polished Arrow]
Mountain People Worship No Lover Like Jesus - Single (independent)
Lexly Nirvana True Story (ft. VerbPro 12:4) - Single [Syntax]
John Pape The Road - Single (independent)
Leslie Perez Waiting For - Single [Gotee]
Matthew Plante KEEP FOCUS! - Single [Dream]
Simply Worship & Sam Daniel Lamb of God - Single (independent)
Ryan Stevenson Eye of the Storm (Anniversary Edition) - Single [Gotee]

Next Wednesday, September 2
SINGLES
Alex Henry Foster Siren's Call - Single [Hopeful Tragedy]

Next Friday, September 4
ALBUMS
Zahna Break or Breakthrough [XOVR]

SINGLES
Beach Chapel Cardiff - Single (independent)
Chandler Letner At a Bar - Single [Dream]
Matthew Plante FAVOUR! - Single [Dream]
Jon Reddick Tell Somebody - Single [Gotee]
Magdalene Rose Do You Want to Be Free? - Single [RockFest]
V1 Worship Still Worthy - Single [Dream]


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