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09. Holding Embers
Album: Life Of Defiance
Artist: Call To Preserve
         
 

I said I'd never go back again. I'm holding embers in my hands. It was compromise after compromise. I pulled closer and still nothing satisfied. Every attempt to feel something pushes you further away. I can't recognize myself. I became someone else.

I pushed it further than I thought I ever would. The fool. The coward. The shameful son. I pushed it further just to find I lost myself. I became someone else.

Waking up wanting to start again. I'm holding my head in my hands, but the days trail behind. My eyes forever fixed. My gaze forever fixed. Every attempt to feel something, pushes you further away. I can't recognize myself. I became someone else.

Just cut me down to where I belong. I need the strength to forgive myself. Just cut me down to where I belong. I need the strength to forgive myself.

I pushed it further than I thought I ever would. The fool. The coward. The shameful son. I pushed it further just to find I lost myself. I became someone else.



 

More Lyrics from Life Of Defiance

  1. 01. Life Of Defiance
  2. 02. Drawing Lines on All Sides
  3. 03. Empty Promises
  4. 04. The Weight
  5. 05. Functionary
  6. 06. Desoto
  7. 07. Thin Skin
  8. 08. Across the Isle
  9. 09. Holding Embers
  10. 10. Lost at Sea
  11. 11. Last Look Back
                 
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This Thursday, August 13
ALBUMS
Various Artists Songs We've Been Trying To Tell You About (And Others We Haven't), Volume Fifteen [JFH Music]

This Friday, August 14
ALBUMS
2819 Worship For Christ Alone - EP [Reach]
The Arcadian Wild Make It Out Alive [Rip Stitch]
JusRzd, Cyrus Sonata, Mic Wise The State of the Art - EP [Syntax]
Jenna Raine Jeans, Boys & Jesus [Warner]

SINGLES
A Tribe Apart, Malcolm Rue, Nicole Muwanguzi Speak Lord - Single [Syntax]
AustinThaNoble Not My Own - Single [Syntax]
GLADDEN Free Fall - Single (independent)
KXC X Brenton Brown, Megan Cockram Hallelujah Jesus Saves - Single (independent)
Brandon Lake How Good God Is - Single [Provident]
Myles Maestro SHOUT TO THE MOON - Single [Syntax]
Jon Reddick King of Heaven - Single [Gotee]
Saints in Exile Wolf That Raised Me - Single [Syntax]
V1 Worship You Alone, Jesus - Single [Dream]

This Saturday, August 15
VINYL
Mat Kearney Nothing Left to Lose (Deluxe) Vinyl

Next Friday, August 21
ALBUMS
Band Reeves How To Forgive [Centricity]
CalledOut Music The Room [Integrity]
MotionPlus, Braille Still Dreamin' - EP [Gospel Banquet]
Lauren Talley Walls (Part One) - EP [Horizon]
Terrian Mad Big World [Gotee]

SINGLES
ELEOS Anchor For My Soul - Single (independent)
Grace Frances Waiting For Me - Single (independent)
WallerCo, John Waller Daddy's Here (Journee's Dream) - Single (independent)


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