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Vital cover
01. Self-Starter
Album: Vital
Artist: Anberlin
 

Last night rolled over beside my bed
That sort of madness could leave us dead
Our eyes deceive we were on fire
Mistook for love and love desire

I still can’t feel nothing
Just want to, want to hold something
Tell me again what’s real?
Tell me again what to feel.

Why do you stay until you see blood?
Why does the weight fall upon us?
We’re on the same side in the same war
Why stay til you see blood?

Where are we that we digress
Long for love but then undress
Our hands no bounds, our hearts detached
We grasp for all that will not last

I still can’t feel nothing
Just want to, want to hold something
Tell me again what’s real?
Tell me again what to feel.


Why do you stay until you see blood?
Why does the weight fall upon us?
We’re on the same side in the same war
Why stay til you see blood?

Fall
Falter on my chest
Feel
Failure to progress



Behind the Song:
About the album:
There are different reasons I chose this title; first we wanted to create a record that when people looked back in time at Anberlin they would choose this record to show their friends as a summation of who we were as a band. The lyrics, the music, the instrumentation- we wanted it all to be simply quintessential ‘Anberlin’.

Finally, I think this was an urgent time for Anberlin, a turning point. We had no idea what was going to happen next in our careers which is the first time we had ever been unsure in our history as a band. The winds had begun to shift and the sense of urgency began to set in; the title ‘Vital’ fit perfectly to me. -- Stephen Christian


About 'Self-Starter':
'This song is about attempting to overcome a mutual vice with someone you are in a relationship with. It seems humanity as a whole is prone to pulling each other down, and we usually assimilate with whom we choose to spend the most time with.

We become callused to our own sin, immune to our shortcomings. We continue to indulge and soon it is a routine and part of our character. For the weak (all of us) we need something beyond ourselves to pull us out of the hole we have dug.

Overcome.' -- Stephen Christian

 

More Lyrics from Vital

  1. 01. Self-Starter
  2. 02. Little Tyrants
  3. 03. Other Side
  4. 04. Someone Anyone
  5. 05. Intentions
  6. 06. Innocent
  7. 07. Desires
  8. 08. Type Three
  9. 09. Orpheum
  10. 10. Modern Age
  11. 11. God, Drugs, & Sex
  12. 12. Unstable (iTunes Exclusive)
  13. 13. Safe Here (B-Side)
  14. 14. Said Too Much (Best Buy Exclusive)
  15. 15. No Love To Speak (Best Buy Exclusive)
                 
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This Friday, October 30
ALBUMS
Beach Chapel A Special Place In Heaven (independent)
Kirk Franklin I Am What I Am [Uptown]
Lucy Gray By The Water - EP (independent)
The Hyssongs We've Got a Song to Sing [Horizon]
The Oak Ridge Boys Buried Treasures [Lightning Rod]
Olive Shoots Music Longing and Loss (independent)
Various Artists Songs Inspired By The Chosen: Season 1-5 [Capitol CMG]
Vomitorial Corpulence Martyrdomical Symphonanthem [Rottweiler]

SINGLES
2 Lane Summer How Do I Live - Single [Quartz Hill]
1K Phew & Timbaland Seven Trumpets - Single [Reach]
Bethel Music Greatness (feat. Aubree Archibeck, Martin Smith) - Single [Bethel]
Gracie Binion & Mitch Wong Gloria - Single [BEC]
Lauren Daigle with Preservation Hall Jazz Band Sleigh Ride & Go Tell It On The Mountain - Double Single [Interscope/Capitol]
Will Ellis My Yesterday’s Are Gone - Single (independent)
Forrest Frank What a Life - Single [River House]
goodwill., GodFearin & Xay Hill IN MOTION - Single [Syntax]
Amy Grant To Be Together (feat. CAIN) [Capitol CMG/AG]
I.A.N. Pray For Me - Single [Syntax]
Laura Kaczor Wrapped in Love - Single [Upstream]
Lady Audri My Body - Single [Syntax]
Leem of the Earth The Cavern of Dark - Single [Velvet Blue]
LOUDWERX Bass Go Boom (feat. Magic & Bird, Andy Mineo) - Single [Artist Influence]
Malcolm Rue & A Tribe Apart Omemma - Single [Syntax]
Kevi Morse Is it too late? - Single [Syntax]
Nai and J Follow - Single (independent)
New Wine Worship For Jesus - Single (independent)
Lloyd Nicks Glory (Angels We Have Heard) - Single [Curb]
Blessing Offor Broken Me (from The Chosen Album) - Single [Capitol CMG]
Hunter Plake It's Beginning to Look a lot Like Christmas - Single [BEC]
Chelsea Plank Make Me Willing - Single [Provident/Sony]
Razzie & OnBeatMusic Brick After Brick - Single [Syntax]
Jordan St. Cyr Guide Me Home - Single [BEC]
Carly Ann Taylor How Glorious (Amazing Grace) - Single [Curb]
TobyMac The Hard Times - Single [Capitol CMG]
Phil Wickham SOS (Don’t Let Me Go) - Single [Capitol CMG]
Aaron Williams Abide (Christmas) [feat. Hope Darst] - Single [Provident/Sony]
ZOEgirl I Still Believe - Single (independent)

This Saturday, October 31
SINGLES
Chaotic Resemblance Move - Single (independent)

Next Friday, November 6
ALBUMS
Big Daddy Weave It's Time For Christmas - EP [Curb]
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Come and See - EP (independent)
Meadows DESERT WALKER (CD) [Facedown Records]
Mystical Death Across [Rottweiler]
Chris Tomlin Good News Of Great Joy (Christmas Songs Of Worship) [Capitol CMG]
We Are Messengers Rejoice! (A Celtic Christmas LIVE) [Curb]
Mark Wills Grand Ole Revival [Gaither]

SINGLES
Olivia Lane Hark! The Herald Angels Sing - Single [BEC]
Tasha Layton & Dave Barnes What Should I Get You For Christmas - Single [BEC]
Hunter Plake Holly Jolly Christmas - Single [BEC]
River Valley Worship Come and Behold - Single [BEC]
Vineyard Worship Jesus Our Christ - Single [Vineyard]

VINYL
Meadows DESERT WALKER Vinyl [Facedown]

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