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1919: The Ballad of Rexford cover
08. The Hardest Job
Album: 1919: The Ballad of Rexford
Artist: Mark Lee Townsend
         
 

I’m supposed to be the
strong one
I’m here standing in the hot
and cold
To bring the wages home
And I don’t really care if I’m
misunderstood
I’m taking all the bruises
doing
what I’m told
To have something of our
own
And I’m not drinking
anymore than all the other
men
But, I can’t say that I’m
drinking any less Maybe a
man has to be hardened
to last a lifetime
Live with your actions and
try not to second-guess
Why can’t I stop myself from
bringing
the anger home
(Can’t stop bringing the
anger home)
You know I’d never want to
let you down
I beg forgiveness for a world
that
turns my heart to stone
(This world is turning my
heart to stone)
And leaves you here to wait
out
the comedown
I’m supposed to be the smart
one Creating what society
has bought and sold Like any
of it matters
And when I lay my head
down full of
hurt tonight
I realize it isn’t worth an
speck of gold
A legacy in tatters
And when my lungs are still
burning from the smoke
within
And the white-hot of sparks
have left a scar again Can a
hard living man ever change
the way he lives
And double back to where
this whole nightmare began
Why can’t I stop myself from
bringing
the anger home
(Can’t stop bringing the
anger home)
You know I’d never want to
let you down
I beg forgiveness for a world
that turns my heart to stone
(This world is turning my
heart to stone)
And leaves you here to wait
out the comedown
What can’t I stop myself
from
bringing the anger home
I never want to hurt you love
You know I want to be the
man
That you can believe in
I’m sorry for every night that
you coward in fear
I can’t explain what’s inside
my head
And I don’t like what going
on
inside my heart
I know we can’t keep going
on like this
As the hours turn to days
turn
to months turn to years
Why can’t I stop myself from
bringing the anger home
(Can’t stop bringing the
anger home)
You know I’d never want to
let you down
I beg forgiveness for a world
that
turns my heart to stone
(This world is turning my
heart to stone)
And leaves you here to wait
out the comedown
Why can’t I stop myself from
bringing the anger home
(Can’t stop bringing the
anger home)
You know I’d never want to
let you down
No, I never wanted to let you
down

MLT- guitars, piano, vocals JR McNeely-bass Chris Cooke-drums Cara Fox-cello Laura Sink-violin Matt Shelton-guest vocalist

 

More Lyrics from 1919: The Ballad of Rexford

  1. 01. The Beginning
  2. 02. 1919
  3. 03. The Kids
  4. 04. The Son
  5. 05. The Realization
  6. 06. The Move
  7. 07. The Apology
  8. 08. The Hardest Job
  9. 09. The Weary Man
  10. 10. The Church Meeting
  11. 11. The Draft
  12. 12. The Dance Hall
  13. 13. The Question
  14. 14. The Sum
  15. 15. The Possibility
  16. 16. The Nowhere
  17. 17. 2005
  18. 18. The Joy
  19. 19. The Homecoming
                 
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