I'm not where I'm goin' but I'm far from home
With each step furthur feelin' so alone
It's my vision your plan, doing all that I can
Each steppin' stone 'till I know I can stand
One foot in front of the next, I keep walkin' these miles 'til this high way connects
It's called grassroots take it from the bottom and rise
close enough to see resolve and the white in their eyes
I've been subjected to lies, had a million tries
Many points to emphasize layin' some to the sides
Still theres places I've gone, mental states that I've been
One can draw me close the other simply is sin
We begin and we end with many stones in between
But this journey isn't lost and this pathway is my dream
Has the narrow way enlightened, the heavy load removed?
No matter the circumstance my condition has not improved
Pursuit of the tried and true, it insued, I keep the pace
In darkness light will shine, in trial I seek your face
It's way beyond the natural, past the status quo
Ask myself to move but truly I just don't know
All that's very clear is that you have brought me here
And until you bring me out I'm about more than would appear
Do your will I'm open to go but not just to react in vain
I know when I follow Your Word my questions always answered in plain
I can't leave it alone...
And it don't stop and we gotta keep on
Until the end when I begin, no man can tell me I'm gone

Benjiman, Casey Mesurvey

Behind the Song:
"I lived next door to a very close family friend from 2003 to 2008 named Steven Smith. He rode motorcycles all the time with my family and I, and heʼs great guy. One morning I was out washing my car and he pulled me aside to tell me about a dream he had involving me. He said God showed him a river with me standing in the middle on a rock looking down stream at a bunch of stepping stones leading to a huge rock at the end. He told me he believed God was saying that I would walk on many stepping stones on the way to the fullness he had for my ministry. I was flabbergasted and immediately started thinking about it day and night… The first lyrics I wrote for the song were, "I'm not where I'm going but I'm far from home," symbolizing taking the step out in faith for ministry and leaving comfort and familiarity behind. Boy, have I lived that in this journey. The actual recording of Shawn McDonald's vocals on this was a journey as well! We were set to record his vocals at his house in Seattle on January 17th 2007. That morning, Casey Mesurvey (who did the original demo), Pete Andersen, and myself left Oregon headed north to Seattle. The problem was by the time we got to Portland the city was gridlocked by 4 inches of snow. The Freeway was a literal parking lot for 18 wheelers and compact cars because it was a surprise storm that packed a lot of punch in a short amount of time. Praise God we were rolling a 4 wheel drive Expedition!! We arrived in seattle 8 hours after we left, and finished the vocals in Shawns closet! They are the very ones you are listening to today on this record! I hope you take a sense of purpose and hope from this song and that you receive many blessings for your journey of faith in pursuit of Christ." - Benjiman