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Beautiful History: A Hits Collection cover
07. Cut
Album: Beautiful History: A Hits Collection
Artist: Plumb
         
 

I'm not a stranger
No, I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our eyes meet
I know you'll see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut



Behind the Song:
“A few years a girl on my message board asked, ‘ Are they any cutters out there?’ She went on to say that her family and friends didn’t understand and even she herself sometimes didn’t understand. That sometimes she felt so numb inside, just to feel alive she would cut the skin. There was an overwhelming response to her question and a community of self-injurers began conversing. So I decided to write a song. There is an audience of people silenced because they are misunderstood. So this song was written to be a tool for creating conversation and to give them hopes that they’re not alone. We are all ‘cut’ in some way… weak in some area of our life… where we need the help of each other. If we don’t understand something, it makes us feel insecure and so we push it away… instead of drawing it close and trying to understand it… even if that just means listening. Listen.” – Plumb

 

More Lyrics from Beautiful History: A Hits Collection

  1. 01. Stranded (2010)
  2. 02. Here With Me (2010)
  3. 03. Damaged [Redemption Extended Version]
  4. 04. God-Shaped Hole (2010)
  5. 05. Real
  6. 06. I Can't Do This
  7. 07. Cut
  8. 08. Better
  9. 09. Blush (Only You)
  10. 10. In My Arms
  11. 11. Hang On (new)
  12. 12. Beautiful History (new)
                 
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This Tuesday, September 22
ALBUMS
PFR Target and the Arrow (independent)

This Thursday, September 24
SINGLES
Bloodlines So Much To Lose - Single [Facedown]
NEEDTOBREATHE Can't Apologize (feat. Jonah Kagen) - Single [UMG]

This Friday, September 25
ALBUMS
Altarheart Prone To Wander [Rottweiler]
ANTHNY Worship Leader's Diary [SONY/Provident]
Elan Brio Sound Waves [Polished Arrow]
Brotality Jaws of the Earth (independent)
Forsaken Eternity Shades of Existence - EP [Rottweiler]
Gaither Bill & Gloria Gaither and their Homecoming Friends Present You Are Loved: A Tribute to the Songs of Bill & Gloria (Live) [Gaither]
gio. PROMISE LAND [Capitol CMG]
Pomegranate More To Find - EP (independent)
Red Worship Witness (independent)
Stryper Throne Of Thorns [Frontiers Music]
We Are Messengers Halfway Home [Curb]
Matthew West Jesus Is King [Story House Music]
The Wood Drake Sessions East to West (independent)

SINGLES
Sarah Anthony Jesus is King - Single (independent)
AustinThaNoble Mommy, I’m Praying for You - Single [Syntax]
Chris Caro DID WHAT I SAID - Single [Syntax]
Jenn Chenoweth Still Small Voice - Single [WieRise]
Kirk Franklin This Time (feat. GloRilla) - Single [Uptown]
Kelo Real Love - Single [Syntax]
Perry LaHaie Well Done - Single [Frontiers]
Rachael Lampa Permission - Single [Centricity]
Jamie MacDonald Used to Be - Single [Capitol CMG]
MŌRIAH Kick - Single [F2]
Neal Morse & The Resonance Walk On Water - Single [InsideOutMusic]
Mackenzie Phillips Made - Single [Gotee]
Presence Music Fight or Flight - Single (independent)
QEW & Cyrus Sonata Nu Nimbus Vibez (ft. Scribe Music) - Single [Syntax]
Jenna Raine I See What You're Saying - Single [Warner]
River Valley Worship King of the Empty Grave - Single [BEC]
Seph Schlueter All In - Single [Provident]
Sleeping At Last Go On Easy - Single (independent)
The Sean Coleman Project Might Just Be My Day (feat. Brad Goff) - Single (independent)

DVD
Gaither Bill & Gloria Gaither and their Homecoming Friends Present You Are Loved: A Tribute to the Songs of Bill & Gloria (Live) DVD [Gaither]

Next Friday, October 2
ALBUMS
Charles Billingsley Replay [StowTown]
Amy Grant The Me That Remains (Deluxe Edition) [Thirty Tigers]
The Light Superior Dayspring [Rottweiler]
Jake MacAdam Source of Life - EP (independent)
Josh Snodgrass Praise (Instrumental Guitar) - EP (independent)
Tauren Wells Here Comes The Church (Live) [Capitol CMG]

SINGLES
Francesca Battistelli Won't Miss A Moment - Single [Curb]
Gracie Binion & Bella Fabrizio Recompense - Single [BEC]
Koryn Hawthorne God Is Real - Single [Motown Gospel]
Olivia Lane Mother's Eyes - Single [BEC]
Chandler Marie Ride Away - Single (independent)


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