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06. The Happy Nihilist
Album: Vagabonds
Artist: The Classic Crime
         
 

I am a happy nihilist, no absolute truth does exist
When I decide to shake my fist, I only got myself to blame
Cause we’re all players and life's the game

I only take what I need, I am so light on my feet
I will not stop or concede, I am not driven by greed
No moral compass for me, it's all just natural feelings
Existence has no meaning, there's no such thing as happy
But late at night when I sleep, I dream of more than I see
There's something burning in me, a driving need to be free,
Why do I sit here and think about the things that I need?
There's nothing left to believe, oh is it all just a dream?

I’ve taught this to myself, piled books up on the shelf
But it still hurts like h*ll to trust nobody else but me

I used to read everything, I used to need nothing
I put my money on me, I used to be something
Now I can’t sleep, cause I’m not happy

I’ve taught this to myself, piled books up on the shelf
But it still hurts like h*ll to trust nobody else but me

Whoa oh oh
Why am I haunted by the metaphysical?
Is it a cosmic lie or is it literal?
The books I read that used to free my mind
Have made me more blind but the truth I’ll find it
I was a happy nihilist
Now I’m wondering why I exist

I’ve taught this to myself, piled books up on the shelf
But it still hurts like h*ll to trust nobody else but me


 

More Lyrics from Vagabonds

  1. 01. A Perfect Voice
  2. 02. Cheap Shots
  3. 03. Solar Powered Life
  4. 04. Four Chords
  5. 05. Vagabonds
  6. 06. The Happy Nihilist
  7. 07. My Name
  8. 08. Everything and Nothing
  9. 09. The Count
  10. 10. Different Now
  11. 11. Broken Mess
                 
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This Wednesday, August 5
ALBUMS
Life.Church Switch Simple - EP (independent)

This Friday, August 7
ALBUMS
The Choir Dragonfly [Galaxy 21]
Dax Anger Management [Columbia]
John Elefante Stories: The John Elefante Collection [Girder]

SINGLES
29:11 Worship Child of God - Single [Dream]
Francesca Battistelli He Will - Single [Curb]
Adriel Cruz I Don't Know About You - Single [Syntax]
Drea LP & OnBeatMusic Don't Think About It - Single [Syntax]
Future of Forestry Trilobite - Single (independent)
Garett and Kate Serban How Amazing (Live) - Single [Bethel]
Good Weather Forecast, SOFYKA NOMADIC TENDENCIES - Single [Dream]
Josh Grove Trust (Psalm 13) - Single (independent)
Ashley Hess BREATHE - Single (independent)
Daye Jack He Is There For Me - Single [Syntax]
Mat Kearney Weakness - Single (independent)
Tasha Cobbs Leonard Gracefully Broken/Who the Son Sets Free (Live) (feat. Israel Houghton) - Single [Motown Gospel]
MotionPlus, Braille Broken Vessels - Single [Gospel Banquet]
Leslie Perez Back to My Love (Live Acoustic) - Single [Gotee]
project LUMO Look At Me Now - Single [Vere]
Katie Rey God, I'm Good - Single (independent)
Allan Scott Everybody Needs Someone - Single [Dream]
Solachi Voz ABBA - Single [Syntax]
Carly Ann Taylor Lifeline - Single [Wings]
Vineyard Worship Reign Forevermore - Single [Vineyard]

Next Thursday, August 13
ALBUMS
Various Artists Songs We've Been Trying To Tell You About (And Others We Haven't), Volume Fifteen [JFH Music]

Next Friday, August 14
ALBUMS
The Arcadian Wild Make It Out Alive [Rip Stitch]
Jenna Raine Jeans, Boys & Jesus [Warner]

SINGLES
GLADDEN Free Fall - Single (independent)
Brandon Lake How Good God Is - Single [Provident]
Jon Reddick King of Heaven - Single [Gotee]
V1 Worship You Alone, Jesus - Single [Dream]

Next Saturday, August 15
VINYL
Mat Kearney Nothing Left to Lose (Deluxe) Vinyl


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