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09. Holding Embers
Album: Life Of Defiance
Artist: Call To Preserve
         
 

I said I'd never go back again. I'm holding embers in my hands. It was compromise after compromise. I pulled closer and still nothing satisfied. Every attempt to feel something pushes you further away. I can't recognize myself. I became someone else.

I pushed it further than I thought I ever would. The fool. The coward. The shameful son. I pushed it further just to find I lost myself. I became someone else.

Waking up wanting to start again. I'm holding my head in my hands, but the days trail behind. My eyes forever fixed. My gaze forever fixed. Every attempt to feel something, pushes you further away. I can't recognize myself. I became someone else.

Just cut me down to where I belong. I need the strength to forgive myself. Just cut me down to where I belong. I need the strength to forgive myself.

I pushed it further than I thought I ever would. The fool. The coward. The shameful son. I pushed it further just to find I lost myself. I became someone else.



 

More Lyrics from Life Of Defiance

  1. 01. Life Of Defiance
  2. 02. Drawing Lines on All Sides
  3. 03. Empty Promises
  4. 04. The Weight
  5. 05. Functionary
  6. 06. Desoto
  7. 07. Thin Skin
  8. 08. Across the Isle
  9. 09. Holding Embers
  10. 10. Lost at Sea
  11. 11. Last Look Back
                 
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This Tuesday, November 10
SINGLES
Seth Davey A New Dawn - Single (independent)

This Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
Anberlin Currency [Equal Vision]

This Friday, November 13
ALBUMS
Blanca A Christmas To Remember [Curb]
Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
Lily Hooten Promise Land [Anotherland]
The Lofi Christian & Commons Worship The Commons Lofi (independent)
outr.cty Green Skies, Blue Grass [Syntax]
Jackie Hill Perry Still Blameless (Deluxe) [Velvet Blue]
Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

SINGLES
Chris Caro 10 YEARS IN A MINUTE - Single [Syntax]
Cutright The Curtain - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Feliz Fast - Single [Centricity]
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Amelia Wells At Your Feet - Single [Hope Lane]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

VINYL
Anberlin Currency Vinyl [Equal Vision]

Next Thursday, November 19
ALBUMS
NEEDTOBREATHE The Long Surrender and The Fellow Passengers of Pain [UMG]

Next Friday, November 20
ALBUMS
Gabrielle Lovelace The Secret of Christmas [Old Bear]
Mountains in the Sea Breakthrough - EP [Dream]
New Wine Worship Ready For More - EP (independent)
The Rogers Family Let's Sing a Song About Jesus [Horizon]
Will Morrison, Calm Worship Collective Christmas Music - Instrumental Piano Holiday Songs (independent)

SINGLES
Francesca Battistelli Messiah (Cinematic) - Single [Curb]
Gracie Binion O Holy Night - Single [BEC]
John Long love deep - Single (independent)
Chandler Marie Merry Christmas Mary - Single (independent)
Hunter Plake Silent Night - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante PRAISE DANCE! - Single [Dream]
Run51 Wishlist - Single [Dream]
Mike Weaver Homecoming - Single [Curb]

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