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Fading West cover
11. Back To The Beginning Again
Album: Fading West
Artist: Switchfoot
 

I can feel it building up inside
The images that play inside my mind
The dreams that I’ve been dreaming all my life
The colors that live outside of the lines

But dreams aren’t all I hide beneath this skin
The cord is cut, the fears and doubts begin
My hope is anchored on the other side
With the colors that live outside of the lines

And the oceans roll
And the wheel’s in spin
And the old chorus soars
Bring me back,
bring me back to the beginning again

With the corrugated LA harbor stacks
With the weight of these machines across my back
I know a mountain road where time unwinds
But I'm busy living in a single-file line

And it all just sounds like poison on my ears
The background noise makes your voice so hard to hear
So I grit my teeth and straighten up my spine
I’m stuck in traffic on a dotted yellow line

And my heart is yours
And what a broken place it's in
But you're what I'm running for
And I want to feel the wind at my back again

Back to the beginning again
Back to the beginning again
I want to feel the wind at my back again
Back to the beginning again




Behind the Song:
"I want to know God's thoughts...the rest are details."
-Albert Einstein

There's a point during every tour where you begin to question the purpose of the journey. As you play the songs over and again and you start to wonder whether any song you've ever written is any good. You look back and all you can see are the mistakes. You look forward and all you can see is futility. You wonder whether your life has all been just one big mistake.

At least I do.

Maybe it's just me. But it happens to me every time. Like clockwork, two thirds of the way through the tour, I start to get depressed. Yes, I love what I do. Yes, It's the best job on the planet. And yes, I'm aware of how many folks would literally chop off a finger to have the day that I have: playing music for a living.

In fact, right now there are millions of souls under the oppression of injustice, human trafficking, HIV-AIDs, hunger, disease, and the tyranny of man. And I live in the luxury of knowing that my family will eat and drink and have a bed to sleep in tonight. And now I'm not only depressed, but now I'm feeling guilty. And then I feel even guilty about my depression!

These are moments that drive me back to the ultimate source of life and love and joy- yes, the creator/re-creator himself. "Bring me back, bring me back to the beginning again." There is no joy to be found in my dead wells, my dried up fountains. I am stuck in the traffic of my dead end thoughts. I long to run free, with the colors that live outside the lines. But these dreams of freedom are mixed with hesitation; my fears and doubts began the day I was born. And yet, my hope is anchored on the other side of life and death with the colors that live outside of the lines.

My heart is yours
and what a broken state it's in
but you're what I'm running for
and I want to feel the wind on my back again

-- Jon Foreman

 

More Lyrics from Fading West

  1. 01. Love Alone is Worth the Fight
  2. 02. Who We Are
  3. 03. When We Come Alive
  4. 04. Say It Like You Mean It
  5. 05. The World You Want
  6. 06. Slipping Away
  7. 07. BA55
  8. 08. Let It Out
  9. 09. All or Nothing At All
  10. 10. Saltwater Heart
  11. 11. Back To The Beginning Again
                 
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Seth Davey A New Dawn - Single (independent)

This Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
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ALBUMS
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VINYL
Anberlin Currency Vinyl [Equal Vision]

Next Thursday, November 19
ALBUMS
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Next Friday, November 20
ALBUMS
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