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12. Hate Myself

The Search
by NF



 

 

I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself

Yeah, late nights are the worst for me
They bring out the worst in me
Mind runnin', got me feelin' like it hurts to think
If this is all that I wanted, I don't want it, gotta be more for me
All the core beliefs
And every mornin' I wake up and feel like I am not worth it 'cause I'm at war with peace
I go to Hell, walk up to the corpse of me
Look at the body like, 'You ain't nothin' but poor and weak'
It's kinda weird
Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I pour the drink
That's more deceit, more defeat
Is this really what I'm born to be?
That's what you get for thinkin' you're unique
So poor, but I'm so wealthy
Need help, but you can't help me
What else can the world sell me?
Tell me lies, I still buy 'em like they're goin' outta stock
But it's not healthy

I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself

Yeah, late nights get the best of me
They know how to get to me
Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me
But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief
So don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful
What is success when hope has left you?
I am not a spokesman, I'm a broken record
Sick of doin' interviews 'cause I hate myself, agh!
Come across like it's so easy
But I feel like you don't need me
When I feel like you don't need me
Then I feel like you don't see me
And my life has no meaning, drain me
Hands out, tryna ask for love
But when I get it, I just pass it up
Throw it away and think about it later
Diggin' through the trash for drugs
Wish I could give you what you needed, but I can't
I'm scared because

I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself

I walk through the ashes of my passions
Reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket
Get lost in the questions I can't answer
Can't stand who I am, but it don't matter
We scream to be free, but I stay captured
Knee-deep in defeat of my own actions
Feel weak, but the peace that I keep lacking
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
But I can't have it
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
But I can't have it
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it

I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Hate myself
But it's hard when I hate myself
Hate myself
But it's hard when I hate myself

When I hate myself
It's kinda hard when I hate myself
I hate myself
It's hard when I hate myself

 

 

 

 

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This Tuesday, June 17
SINGLES
Alex Henry Foster Springtime - Single [Hopeful Tragedy]
NEEDTOBREATHE Last Drink - Single [UMG]

This Friday, June 19
ALBUMS
GVTH DVDDY GVDV [Velvet Blue Music]

SINGLES
AAH (All About Him) That's My God - Single (independent)
AustinThaNoble Issa Vibe - Single [Syntax]
CalledOut Music Everything and More - Single [Integrity]
Chris Caro Far From Home - Single [Syntax]
Dex the nerd who loves Jesus Lost Files 3000 - Single [Syntax]
DOE To You (feat. Joe L Barnes) - Single [Provident/Sony]
eddieM Be Still - Single [Syntax]
Emery Numbers - Single (independent)
Josh Grove Hope - Single (independent)
Jericko Come and Get it - Single [Syntax]
Kaboose Like That - Single [Polished Arrow Music]
KNGDM REVIVAL Psalm 91 - Single [Dream]
Kris Kristofferson, Tanya Tucker, Dennis Quaid On My Way to Heaven - Single [Gaither]
Tasha Cobbs Leonard Final Say - Single [Motown Gospel / TeeLee]
Living Again Cynical and Jaded - Single (independent)
Tenielle Neda Who Do They Say I Am? - Single (independent)
The Protest Cloudwalker - Single (independent)
Raining Locusts Maligned Into Deformity - Single [Charon Collective]
Kierra Sheard Shine - Single [Karew]
Terrian Mad Big World - Single [Gotee]
Tyraels Ascension No End In Sight - Single (independent)
Bethany Wohrle Seen Too Much - Single [Bethel]
Nathan Woodard You Are Holy - Single [North Chapel Records]

Next Tuesday, June 23
ALBUMS
PFR Disappear (Remastered) (independent)

Next Friday, June 26
ALBUMS
Andy Mineo & Wordsplayed Magic & Bird 2 (independent)
Clark Beckham Acoustic Worship Sessions [NCS]
Dragons & Astronauts Broken Parables (independent)
floodlit MiDaSu (independent)
Gracie Miss Misfortunately [Tooth & Nail]
Tiffany Hudson When You're In The Room [Elevation]
Switchfoot FOREVER NOW [By Design/BMG]
TobyMac Heaven On My Mind – Guest List Edition [Capitol CMG]
Tomb Slayer Radiance: Modern Hymns for Kids [Tomb Slayer]
Tree63 VOYAGE (independent)

SINGLES
Death Protocol Illusion Of Faith - Single [Rottweiler]
Hillside Recording in the room - Single (independent)
Cameron Payne Time - Single (independent)
GLADDEN & Kurtis Hoppie Round & Round - Single (independent)
John Reuben 1-2-Barbecue (w/ Mike Tompkins) - Single (independent)
Trey Simon & Mountain People Worship Brother Jo - Single (independent)
Phil Wickham x Pat Barrett Praise The Lord Forever - Single [Fair Trade]


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