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Devotion cover
01. Self-Starter
Album: Devotion
Artist: Anberlin
 

Last night rolled over beside my bed
That sort of madness could leave us dead
Our eyes deceive we were on fire
Mistook for love and love desire

I still can’t feel nothing
Just want to, want to hold something
Tell me again what’s real?
Tell me again what to feel.

Why do you stay until you see blood?
Why does the weight fall upon us?
We’re on the same side in the same war
Why stay til you see blood?

Where are we that we digress
Long for love but then undress
Our hands no bounds, our hearts detached
We grasp for all that will not last

I still can’t feel nothing
Just want to, want to hold something
Tell me again what’s real?
Tell me again what to feel.


Why do you stay until you see blood?
Why does the weight fall upon us?
We’re on the same side in the same war
Why stay til you see blood?

Fall
Falter on my chest
Feel
Failure to progress



Behind the Song:
About the album:
There are different reasons I chose this title; first we wanted to create a record that when people looked back in time at Anberlin they would choose this record to show their friends as a summation of who we were as a band. The lyrics, the music, the instrumentation- we wanted it all to be simply quintessential ‘Anberlin’.

Finally, I think this was an urgent time for Anberlin, a turning point. We had no idea what was going to happen next in our careers which is the first time we had ever been unsure in our history as a band. The winds had begun to shift and the sense of urgency began to set in; the title ‘Vital’ fit perfectly to me. -- Stephen Christian


About 'Self-Starter':
'This song is about attempting to overcome a mutual vice with someone you are in a relationship with. It seems humanity as a whole is prone to pulling each other down, and we usually assimilate with whom we choose to spend the most time with.

We become callused to our own sin, immune to our shortcomings. We continue to indulge and soon it is a routine and part of our character. For the weak (all of us) we need something beyond ourselves to pull us out of the hole we have dug.

Overcome.' -- Stephen Christian

 

More Lyrics from Devotion

  1. 01. Self-Starter
  2. 02. Little Tyrants
  3. 03. Other Side
  4. 04. City Electric
  5. 05. Someone Anyone
  6. 06. Unstable
  7. 07. Intentions
  8. 08. Innocent
  9. 09. Dead American
  10. 10. Desires
  11. 11. Said Too Much
  12. 12. IJSW
  13. 13. Type Three
  14. 14. No Love To Speak
  15. 15. Orpheum
  16. 16. Safe Here
  17. 17. Modern Age
  18. 18. God, Drugs, & Sex
                 
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Seth Davey A New Dawn - Single (independent)

This Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
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ALBUMS
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Cutright The Curtain - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Feliz Fast - Single [Centricity]
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
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Amelia Wells At Your Feet - Single [Hope Lane]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

VINYL
Anberlin Currency Vinyl [Equal Vision]

Next Thursday, November 19
ALBUMS
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Next Friday, November 20
ALBUMS
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Hunter Plake Silent Night - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante PRAISE DANCE! - Single [Dream]
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Mike Weaver Homecoming - Single [Curb]

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