We lay face down in pale solitude
To save face, we pulled our walls in front of you
To the same place where we danced in front of you
We fell from grace and watched the hope fall from your face

This isn't me I used to say
All the love was so gone
It feels good to be alive
I've been dead for so long

And all those broken promises
I can't face, afraid if someone notices, i lose my place
Fractures, broken, paralyzed
I need some space, tear me open, analyze

This isn't me I used to say
All the love was so gone
It feels good to be alive
I've been dead for so long

Wake up screaming, I'm awake and dreaming
And I won't stop breathing until my heart stops beating

This isn't me I used to say
All the love was so gone
It feels good to be alive
I've been dead for so long



Behind the Song:
If memory serves me right, I wrote this song in 1999. I was sitting in my friend Darren’s apartment off Arden Way in Sacramento, and we’d been listening to Marilyn Manson’s Mechanical Animals quite a lot. To this day, I believe that album to be Manson’s best by a landslide. It’s innovative, interesting, complex, catchy... and has some of my favorite guitar and vocal effects. The slower, more melancholy songs were what resonated with me the most—and those songs were the catalyst for “My Throat is an Open Grave”—at least stylistically speaking. I didn’t title the song until we’d started writing the first Demon Hunter record in 2001. Truthfully, DH wasn’t conceived when I’d written it, so I had no idea where it would end up. I’m a bit surprised how well this song has held up over the years. I think it’s done so better than a lot of our early material. In any case, it seems fitting to begin the set with the song that technically started it all. —Ryan Clark