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Are We There Yet?  cover
05. X-Ray
Album: Are We There Yet?
Artist: John Reuben
         
 

Broken reality theres no means of escape
Broken reality lookin' to leave this mind-state
But the more that I leave the harder it seems I come back
Now I'm livin' out these lies that I call my trap
And I call it that cuz I didn't do this intentionaly
What I now call my trap I used to call my fantasy
And why do I fantasize in order to leave the reality
Of not being able to relate personally or socially
Somtimes I wonder what it would be like to be respected
But until then I'll dream about bein' accepted
I wonder what it would feel like to be respected

(Chorus):
All wrong no right no one no sun no light
This life this fight I'll hide
Inside no matter where you go you cant escape whats inside.

Man somebody get me out of this place
Of loneliness hopelessness depression and disgrace
At this pace I'm on the verge of self-destruction
With nothin' to go on but my self instruction
So what does that leave me
I try to communicate with the world but none of you out
There could perceive me
So instead of words I began to express through actions
So anger n rage become my mere satisfaction
Hate fills my being I'm seeing no means of release
So I escape into my fantasy where I live in peace
Here I can be anybody I want to here I can be anybody I choose too
Here in this place I feel good there's no restriction this place
Is so good that its becoming my addiction

I say I'm not lost but why am I searching
I say pain dont fade me but then again why am I hurtin'
I say I won't show emotion but yet
I cant hide these eyes that have been stained by tears
I say I can't be help back but yet I've
been in the same place for years
I say I wanna go free but something keeps me bound
I say I wanna go higher but my feet havent left the ground
man I told ya'll I didnt care but then
Again why is my heart so heavy
I told the world to bring it but deep down I knew I wasn't ready
I said I couldnt be deceived meanwhile I'm
Walking into the same old traps
I said I couldnt be broke as I watch my world collapse
Watch my world collapse

Chorus:
No matter where you go you can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go you can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go you can't escape what's inside
No matter where I go
(repeat 2x)


 

More Lyrics from Are We There Yet?

  1. 01. Divine Inspiration
  2. 02. Do Not
  3. 03. No Regrets
  4. 04. Him Her He She
  5. 05. X-Ray
  6. 06. Gather In
  7. 07. Rest Easy
  8. 08. Hello Ego
  9. 09. Jezebel
  10. 10. Draw Near
  11. 11. Identify
  12. 12. Place to Be
  13. 13. God is Love
                 
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This Tuesday, September 22
ALBUMS
PFR Target and the Arrow (independent)

This Thursday, September 24
SINGLES
Bloodlines So Much To Lose - Single [Facedown]
NEEDTOBREATHE Can't Apologize (feat. Jonah Kagen) - Single [UMG]

This Friday, September 25
ALBUMS
Altarheart Prone To Wander [Rottweiler]
ANTHNY Worship Leader's Diary [SONY/Provident]
Elan Brio Sound Waves [Polished Arrow]
Brotality Jaws of the Earth (independent)
Forsaken Eternity Shades of Existence - EP [Rottweiler]
Gaither Bill & Gloria Gaither and their Homecoming Friends Present You Are Loved: A Tribute to the Songs of Bill & Gloria (Live) [Gaither]
gio. PROMISE LAND [Capitol CMG]
Pomegranate More To Find - EP (independent)
Red Worship Witness (independent)
Stryper Throne Of Thorns [Frontiers Music]
We Are Messengers Halfway Home [Curb]
Matthew West Jesus Is King [Story House Music]
The Wood Drake Sessions East to West (independent)

SINGLES
Sarah Anthony Jesus is King - Single (independent)
AustinThaNoble Mommy, I’m Praying for You - Single [Syntax]
Chris Caro DID WHAT I SAID - Single [Syntax]
Jenn Chenoweth Still Small Voice - Single [WieRise]
Kirk Franklin This Time (feat. GloRilla) - Single [Uptown]
Kelo Real Love - Single [Syntax]
Perry LaHaie Well Done - Single [Frontiers]
Rachael Lampa Permission - Single [Centricity]
Jamie MacDonald Used to Be - Single [Capitol CMG]
MŌRIAH Kick - Single [F2]
Neal Morse & The Resonance Walk On Water - Single [InsideOutMusic]
Mackenzie Phillips Made - Single [Gotee]
Presence Music Fight or Flight - Single (independent)
QEW & Cyrus Sonata Nu Nimbus Vibez (ft. Scribe Music) - Single [Syntax]
Jenna Raine I See What You're Saying - Single [Warner]
River Valley Worship King of the Empty Grave - Single [BEC]
Seph Schlueter All In - Single [Provident]
Sleeping At Last Go On Easy - Single (independent)
The Sean Coleman Project Might Just Be My Day (feat. Brad Goff) - Single (independent)

DVD
Gaither Bill & Gloria Gaither and their Homecoming Friends Present You Are Loved: A Tribute to the Songs of Bill & Gloria (Live) DVD [Gaither]

Next Friday, October 2
ALBUMS
Charles Billingsley Replay [StowTown]
Amy Grant The Me That Remains (Deluxe Edition) [Thirty Tigers]
The Light Superior Dayspring [Rottweiler]
Jake MacAdam Source of Life - EP (independent)
Josh Snodgrass Praise (Instrumental Guitar) - EP (independent)
Tauren Wells Here Comes The Church (Live) [Capitol CMG]

SINGLES
Francesca Battistelli Won't Miss A Moment - Single [Curb]
Gracie Binion & Bella Fabrizio Recompense - Single [BEC]
Koryn Hawthorne God Is Real - Single [Motown Gospel]
Olivia Lane Mother's Eyes - Single [BEC]
Chandler Marie Ride Away - Single (independent)


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