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Are We There Yet?  cover
05. X-Ray
Album: Are We There Yet?
Artist: John Reuben
         
 

Broken reality theres no means of escape
Broken reality lookin' to leave this mind-state
But the more that I leave the harder it seems I come back
Now I'm livin' out these lies that I call my trap
And I call it that cuz I didn't do this intentionaly
What I now call my trap I used to call my fantasy
And why do I fantasize in order to leave the reality
Of not being able to relate personally or socially
Somtimes I wonder what it would be like to be respected
But until then I'll dream about bein' accepted
I wonder what it would feel like to be respected

(Chorus):
All wrong no right no one no sun no light
This life this fight I'll hide
Inside no matter where you go you cant escape whats inside.

Man somebody get me out of this place
Of loneliness hopelessness depression and disgrace
At this pace I'm on the verge of self-destruction
With nothin' to go on but my self instruction
So what does that leave me
I try to communicate with the world but none of you out
There could perceive me
So instead of words I began to express through actions
So anger n rage become my mere satisfaction
Hate fills my being I'm seeing no means of release
So I escape into my fantasy where I live in peace
Here I can be anybody I want to here I can be anybody I choose too
Here in this place I feel good there's no restriction this place
Is so good that its becoming my addiction

I say I'm not lost but why am I searching
I say pain dont fade me but then again why am I hurtin'
I say I won't show emotion but yet
I cant hide these eyes that have been stained by tears
I say I can't be help back but yet I've
been in the same place for years
I say I wanna go free but something keeps me bound
I say I wanna go higher but my feet havent left the ground
man I told ya'll I didnt care but then
Again why is my heart so heavy
I told the world to bring it but deep down I knew I wasn't ready
I said I couldnt be deceived meanwhile I'm
Walking into the same old traps
I said I couldnt be broke as I watch my world collapse
Watch my world collapse

Chorus:
No matter where you go you can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go you can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go you can't escape what's inside
No matter where I go
(repeat 2x)


 

More Lyrics from Are We There Yet?

  1. 01. Divine Inspiration
  2. 02. Do Not
  3. 03. No Regrets
  4. 04. Him Her He She
  5. 05. X-Ray
  6. 06. Gather In
  7. 07. Rest Easy
  8. 08. Hello Ego
  9. 09. Jezebel
  10. 10. Draw Near
  11. 11. Identify
  12. 12. Place to Be
  13. 13. God is Love
                 
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This Tuesday, November 10
SINGLES
Seth Davey A New Dawn - Single (independent)

This Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
Anberlin Currency [Equal Vision]

This Friday, November 13
ALBUMS
Blanca A Christmas To Remember [Curb]
Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
Lily Hooten Promise Land [Anotherland]
The Lofi Christian & Commons Worship The Commons Lofi (independent)
outr.cty Green Skies, Blue Grass [Syntax]
Jackie Hill Perry Still Blameless (Deluxe) [Velvet Blue]
Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

SINGLES
Chris Caro 10 YEARS IN A MINUTE - Single [Syntax]
Cutright The Curtain - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Feliz Fast - Single [Centricity]
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Amelia Wells At Your Feet - Single [Hope Lane]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

VINYL
Anberlin Currency Vinyl [Equal Vision]

Next Thursday, November 19
ALBUMS
NEEDTOBREATHE The Long Surrender and The Fellow Passengers of Pain [UMG]

Next Friday, November 20
ALBUMS
Gabrielle Lovelace The Secret of Christmas [Old Bear]
Mountains in the Sea Breakthrough - EP [Dream]
New Wine Worship Ready For More - EP (independent)
The Rogers Family Let's Sing a Song About Jesus [Horizon]
Will Morrison, Calm Worship Collective Christmas Music - Instrumental Piano Holiday Songs (independent)

SINGLES
Francesca Battistelli Messiah (Cinematic) - Single [Curb]
Gracie Binion O Holy Night - Single [BEC]
John Long love deep - Single (independent)
Chandler Marie Merry Christmas Mary - Single (independent)
Hunter Plake Silent Night - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante PRAISE DANCE! - Single [Dream]
Run51 Wishlist - Single [Dream]
Mike Weaver Homecoming - Single [Curb]

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