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14. A Defensive Offender
Album: Hindsight
Artist: John Reuben
         
 

Did it make you feel good to break me down
Did it make you feel good to take me down
Was life getting to you was it all you knew to do
What kind of comfort did you feel by making me less than you
Did it make you feel good to know that your attempt to bring me down
Was beginning to control my perception of self
And that’s what you wanted right
To manipulate my thinking and dominate what I feel like
Tap into my thinking tap into my will
What causes human motives to be so ill
You pushed a man looking to make him react
Then you stand there smirking satisfied that I snapped

(chorus)
I’m no better than you you’re no better than me
We’re just flesh and bone looking for some identity
I’m no better than you you’re no better than me
We’re just flesh and bone looking for some security

Did it make me feel good to break you down
Did it make me feel good to take you down
What did it do for me to put your respect on the line
By taking yours did I find it to build mine
Hold my head high from the outcome
How come when I’m doing things I used to run from
Scrap the pitch fork horns and animated terror
Looked in the mirror and found evil standing right there
I guess this is the point when you see Satan in you
No form of retaliation was worth hating you
I take that view and then I eat my words too
I guess all along I was no better than you

(chorus)

Some want peace and some want war
So many hate without knowing what for
Some are naturally rich but spiritually poor
Some have so much but would kill for more
Some are unsure so they front hardcore
And try to dominate those that make them insecure
And I’ve been on both sides before
A defensive offender stripped down to the core

(chorus)


 

More Lyrics from Hindsight

  1. 01. I'll Try Harder
  2. 02. I John Reu
  3. 03. Hindsight
  4. 04. Big E Cypher Session
  5. 05. Soundman
  6. 06. Run The Night
  7. 07. Breathe
  8. 08. I Pictured It
  9. 09. 01/08/02
  10. 10. Doin'
  11. 11. Thank You
  12. 12. DJ Manuel
  13. 13. Up and At 'Em
  14. 14. A Defensive Offender
  15. 15. Pataskala
                 
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SINGLES
Seth Davey A New Dawn - Single (independent)

This Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
Anberlin Currency [Equal Vision]

This Friday, November 13
ALBUMS
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Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
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Jackie Hill Perry Still Blameless (Deluxe) [Velvet Blue]
Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

SINGLES
Chris Caro 10 YEARS IN A MINUTE - Single [Syntax]
Cutright The Curtain - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Feliz Fast - Single [Centricity]
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Amelia Wells At Your Feet - Single [Hope Lane]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

VINYL
Anberlin Currency Vinyl [Equal Vision]

Next Thursday, November 19
ALBUMS
NEEDTOBREATHE The Long Surrender and The Fellow Passengers of Pain [UMG]

Next Friday, November 20
ALBUMS
Gabrielle Lovelace The Secret of Christmas [Old Bear]
Mountains in the Sea Breakthrough - EP [Dream]
New Wine Worship Ready For More - EP (independent)
The Rogers Family Let's Sing a Song About Jesus [Horizon]
Will Morrison, Calm Worship Collective Christmas Music - Instrumental Piano Holiday Songs (independent)

SINGLES
Francesca Battistelli Messiah (Cinematic) - Single [Curb]
Gracie Binion O Holy Night - Single [BEC]
John Long love deep - Single (independent)
Chandler Marie Merry Christmas Mary - Single (independent)
Hunter Plake Silent Night - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante PRAISE DANCE! - Single [Dream]
Run51 Wishlist - Single [Dream]
Mike Weaver Homecoming - Single [Curb]

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