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01. Bearing Gruesome Cargo
Album: Vanishing Lessons
Artist: Tourniquet
 

This is why I am the way that I am
This is why I am the way that I am
This is why I am the way that I am
This is why I am the way that I am

You know I'm carrying with me
Over twenty years of pity
My whole personality
Was formed by others, not me
When I look back on my life
One that's always filled with strife
I rode down a bad course
Nobody's fault but yours

My step always threw me right down the stairs
So forgive me when I do the same thing to you
I know it must seem like your daddy never cares
But if you knew what I've been through
You'd do the same thing too

Well I can't make a move
Without draggin' all my baggage
My father always cussed
So forgive me for my language
Please excuse me for yelling
Pardom me for telling you to stop
Selling to me your God in Heaven

This is why I am the way that I am
This is why I am the way that I am
If I can keep this up for the rest of my days
I may never have to take responsibility
For my ways



 

More Lyrics from Vanishing Lessons

  1. 01. Bearing Gruesome Cargo
  2. 02. Pecking Order
  3. 03. Drowning Machine
  4. 04. Pushin' Broom
  5. 05. Vanishing Lessons
  6. 06. My Promise
  7. 07. Acid Head
  8. 08. K517 (Instrumental)
  9. 09. Twilight
  10. 10. Your Take
  11. 11. Sola Christus
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Music Out This Week


This Wednesday, August 5
ALBUMS
Life.Church Switch Simple - EP (independent)

This Friday, August 7
ALBUMS
The Choir Dragonfly [Galaxy 21]
Dax Anger Management [Columbia]
John Elefante Stories: The John Elefante Collection [Girder]

SINGLES
29:11 Worship Child of God - Single [Dream]
Francesca Battistelli He Will - Single [Curb]
Adriel Cruz I Don't Know About You - Single [Syntax]
Drea LP & OnBeatMusic Don't Think About It - Single [Syntax]
Future of Forestry Trilobite - Single (independent)
Garett and Kate Serban How Amazing (Live) - Single [Bethel]
Good Weather Forecast, SOFYKA NOMADIC TENDENCIES - Single [Dream]
Josh Grove Trust (Psalm 13) - Single (independent)
Ashley Hess BREATHE - Single (independent)
Daye Jack He Is There For Me - Single [Syntax]
Mat Kearney Weakness - Single (independent)
Tasha Cobbs Leonard Gracefully Broken/Who the Son Sets Free (Live) (feat. Israel Houghton) - Single [Motown Gospel]
MotionPlus, Braille Broken Vessels - Single [Gospel Banquet]
Leslie Perez Back to My Love (Live Acoustic) - Single [Gotee]
project LUMO Look At Me Now - Single [Vere]
Katie Rey God, I'm Good - Single (independent)
Allan Scott Everybody Needs Someone - Single [Dream]
Solachi Voz ABBA - Single [Syntax]
Carly Ann Taylor Lifeline - Single [Wings]
Vineyard Worship Reign Forevermore - Single [Vineyard]

Next Thursday, August 13
ALBUMS
Various Artists Songs We've Been Trying To Tell You About (And Others We Haven't), Volume Fifteen [JFH Music]

Next Friday, August 14
ALBUMS
The Arcadian Wild Make It Out Alive [Rip Stitch]
Jenna Raine Jeans, Boys & Jesus [Warner]

SINGLES
GLADDEN Free Fall - Single (independent)
Brandon Lake How Good God Is - Single [Provident]
Jon Reddick King of Heaven - Single [Gotee]
V1 Worship You Alone, Jesus - Single [Dream]

Next Saturday, August 15
VINYL
Mat Kearney Nothing Left to Lose (Deluxe) Vinyl
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