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Vanishing Lessons cover
01. Bearing Gruesome Cargo
Album: Vanishing Lessons
Artist: Tourniquet
 

This is why I am the way that I am
This is why I am the way that I am
This is why I am the way that I am
This is why I am the way that I am

You know I'm carrying with me
Over twenty years of pity
My whole personality
Was formed by others, not me
When I look back on my life
One that's always filled with strife
I rode down a bad course
Nobody's fault but yours

My step always threw me right down the stairs
So forgive me when I do the same thing to you
I know it must seem like your daddy never cares
But if you knew what I've been through
You'd do the same thing too

Well I can't make a move
Without draggin' all my baggage
My father always cussed
So forgive me for my language
Please excuse me for yelling
Pardom me for telling you to stop
Selling to me your God in Heaven

This is why I am the way that I am
This is why I am the way that I am
If I can keep this up for the rest of my days
I may never have to take responsibility
For my ways



 

More Lyrics from Vanishing Lessons

  1. 01. Bearing Gruesome Cargo
  2. 02. Pecking Order
  3. 03. Drowning Machine
  4. 04. Pushin' Broom
  5. 05. Vanishing Lessons
  6. 06. My Promise
  7. 07. Acid Head
  8. 08. K517 (Instrumental)
  9. 09. Twilight
  10. 10. Your Take
  11. 11. Sola Christus
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