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Five Score And Seven Years Ago cover
10. Faking My Own Suicide
Album: Five Score And Seven Years Ago
Artist: Relient K
         
 

So I’ve made up my mind
I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end you'll know I've lied
To get your attention, I'm faking my own suicide

I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me, you just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral because a part of you will die along with me

I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave
You'd come to the conclusion you'd loved me all your days
But its too late, too late for you to say

I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you your love for me was more than six feet deep
You'll say aloud you would've been my wife
And right about that time, is when I'd come back to life
And let you know

That all along I was faking my own suicide
Because I know you loved me, you just never realized
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk in the room and see your eyes open so wide

Because you know
You will never leave my side
Until I the day that I die for the first time
And we'll laugh, yeah, we'll laugh and we will cry
So overjoyed with our love thats so alive
Our love is so alive



 

More Lyrics from Five Score And Seven Years Ago

  1. 01. Plead The Fifth (A Cappella)
  2. 02. Come Right Out And Say It
  3. 03. I Need You
  4. 04. The Best Thing
  5. 05. Forgiven
  6. 06. Must Have Done Something Right
  7. 07. Give
  8. 08. Devastation And Reform
  9. 09. I'm Taking You With Me
  10. 10. Faking My Own Suicide
  11. 11. Crayons Can Melt On Us For All I Care
  12. 12. Bite My Tongue
  13. 13. Up And Up
  14. 14. Deathbed
                 
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