I'll be the one last breath before this death
I'll be the final glimpse of truth when there's none left
And if I shame your face, degrade your faith
I'll be the first to hide behind disgrace
Blood loss - on account of my failing aim
Treason - at the root of my shameful name

I found my way to fall
I never meant to break your heart


Breathing in this pain (rejecting all I am)
I hear you cry again (Is this my final stand)
Before I go (Before I lose it all)
You should know ( I hate myself for hurting you)

I see the burn of the light from from within my grave
I feel the pain of contradiction despite decay
And if the shadow of doubt will betray this gain
Then put an end to me how while the hope remains
Blood loss - on account of my failing aim
Treason - at the root of my shameful name

Breathing in this pain (rejecting all I am)
I hear you cry again (Is this my final stand)
Before I go (Before I lose it all)
You should know (I hate myself for hurting you)

This is not my life
This is not our life
Every day I die
This is not my life