Careless, I am reckless
I’m a wrong-way-travelin’-slowly-unraveling shell of a man
Burnt out, I’m so numb now
That the fire’s just an ember way down in the corner of my cold, cold heart

Lord, this time I’ll make it right, here at the altar I lay my life
Your kingdom come but my will was done, my heart is broken as I...

Cry, like so many times before
But my eyes are dry before I leave the floor, oh Lord
I try but this time, Jesus, how can I be sure I will not lose my follow through
Between the altar and the door

Here at the altar, oh my world so black and white
How could I ever falter
What You’ve shown me to be right

I’m trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me
Jesus, I’m trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me

Oh Lord, I


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Behind the Song:
This song began as a line in the song “Somewhere In The Middle.” I decided to name the album “The Altar And The Door” before this song was written. Then on the four-hour trip to Nashville to record, God gave me this song. ~Ephesians 6:7-10 / Romans 7:15-20 / Isaiah 53:6 / Isaiah 64:5-6 / 2 Timothy 2:13 / Psalm 14:1-3 / Psalm 53:1-3 / Romans 3:9-12, 21-26 / Mark 9:23-24

"On the drive up to Nashville to record “Somewhere In the Middle,” I wrote “The Altar And The Door.” When we're in the church and spending time with God, we know what we're supposed to do and how to live. Everything is black and white. But somewhere between the altar and the door, when we leave and go out into our lives, it all leaks out. Everything gets gray again. It's like we have those two lives, and the Christian life is the journey between...trying to get the things you've got in your head, into your hands, into your feet, and into your life." - Mark Hall (Casting Crowns)