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The Heath McNease Fan Club Meets Tonight cover
12. Favorite Nightmare
Album: The Heath McNease Fan Club Meets Tonight
Artist: Heath McNease
         
 

You wear your heart on your sleeve
And I wear mine under your feet
That's just my way of being close to you
That's just my way
Scarlet letter wearer, harlot, terror bearer, let's go where the weather's fairing better, Hester, Prynn,
fester within, rest in my skin, yes, 21st century Jezebel to men, welcome them in to the web that you
spin, the deception is kin to the animal kingdom and I'm singing the song of how I gave you my best years,
knowing every word I say is falling on your deaf ears

I keep forgetting to forget about you
Look at what I've become now without you
No matter where I go, you're right there
My favorite nightmare

I'll relive the words and how each word hurt till I'm face first in the dirt, embracing what was, I miss
your lips and your kiss, wish to ignore this, wish to just forget bliss, forward this wish to the top of
my forget-it list, endorse it with my sin, the forbidden kiss, was I the fork in the midst of a road of
important decisions, cause you turned and detoured with pinpoint precision

I don't love you, could never be love when my stomach can hardly stomach you, jumping through hoops no
more, accustomed to a low score, adjusting to a soul-scorching array of assorted mortars, and I'm choking
on my own spite, on my own spit, I'm a lethargic lump of something called nothing, love is my punishment,
love is the worst gift, but the greatest too, the breath of fresh air that could suffocate you

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(interlude)
Two steps away from a bullet in my brain
And I don't know, I don't know


 

More Lyrics from The Heath McNease Fan Club Meets Tonight

  1. 01. Where I'm Not Wanted
  2. 02. Follow The Leader
  3. 03. Down To The River
  4. 04. Rumors
  5. 05. If You Can
  6. 06. Love Me
  7. 07. Farewell My Dignity
  8. 08. Good Samaritan Get Down
  9. 09. Swing Low
  10. 10. Call Me Mister
  11. 11. Second Wind
  12. 12. Favorite Nightmare
  13. 13. So So
  14. 14. Nintendo Thumb
  15. 15. Smile On Me
                 
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Seth Davey A New Dawn - Single (independent)

This Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
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ALBUMS
Blanca A Christmas To Remember [Curb]
Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
Lily Hooten Promise Land [Anotherland]
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Jackie Hill Perry Still Blameless (Deluxe) [Velvet Blue]
Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

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Cutright The Curtain - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Feliz Fast - Single [Centricity]
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Amelia Wells At Your Feet - Single [Hope Lane]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

VINYL
Anberlin Currency Vinyl [Equal Vision]

Next Thursday, November 19
ALBUMS
NEEDTOBREATHE The Long Surrender and The Fellow Passengers of Pain [UMG]

Next Friday, November 20
ALBUMS
Gabrielle Lovelace The Secret of Christmas [Old Bear]
Mountains in the Sea Breakthrough - EP [Dream]
New Wine Worship Ready For More - EP (independent)
The Rogers Family Let's Sing a Song About Jesus [Horizon]
Will Morrison, Calm Worship Collective Christmas Music - Instrumental Piano Holiday Songs (independent)

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Francesca Battistelli Messiah (Cinematic) - Single [Curb]
Gracie Binion O Holy Night - Single [BEC]
John Long love deep - Single (independent)
Chandler Marie Merry Christmas Mary - Single (independent)
Hunter Plake Silent Night - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante PRAISE DANCE! - Single [Dream]
Run51 Wishlist - Single [Dream]
Mike Weaver Homecoming - Single [Curb]

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