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Beautiful History: A Hits Collection cover
07. Cut
Album: Beautiful History: A Hits Collection
Artist: Plumb
         
 

I'm not a stranger
No, I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

A fragile frame aged
With misery
And when our eyes meet
I know you'll see

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn't be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don't want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut
Pain
I am not alone
I am not alone

I'm not a stranger
No I am yours
With crippled anger
And tears that still drip sore

But I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I'm tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I found it when
I was cut



Behind the Song:
“A few years a girl on my message board asked, ‘ Are they any cutters out there?’ She went on to say that her family and friends didn’t understand and even she herself sometimes didn’t understand. That sometimes she felt so numb inside, just to feel alive she would cut the skin. There was an overwhelming response to her question and a community of self-injurers began conversing. So I decided to write a song. There is an audience of people silenced because they are misunderstood. So this song was written to be a tool for creating conversation and to give them hopes that they’re not alone. We are all ‘cut’ in some way… weak in some area of our life… where we need the help of each other. If we don’t understand something, it makes us feel insecure and so we push it away… instead of drawing it close and trying to understand it… even if that just means listening. Listen.” – Plumb

 

More Lyrics from Beautiful History: A Hits Collection

  1. 01. Stranded (2010)
  2. 02. Here With Me (2010)
  3. 03. Damaged [Redemption Extended Version]
  4. 04. God-Shaped Hole (2010)
  5. 05. Real
  6. 06. I Can't Do This
  7. 07. Cut
  8. 08. Better
  9. 09. Blush (Only You)
  10. 10. In My Arms
  11. 11. Hang On (new)
  12. 12. Beautiful History (new)
                 
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This Friday, October 30
ALBUMS
Beach Chapel A Special Place In Heaven (independent)
Kirk Franklin I Am What I Am [Uptown]
The Oak Ridge Boys Buried Treasures [Lightning Rod]
The Hyssongs We've Got a Song to Sing [Horizon]
Various Artists Songs Inspired By The Chosen: Season 1-5 [Capitol CMG]
Vomitorial Corpulence Martyrdomical Symphonanthem [Rottweiler]

SINGLES
2 Lane Summer How Do I Live - Single [Quartz Hill]
1K Phew & Timbaland Seven Trumpets - Single [Reach]
Gracie Binion & Mitch Wong Gloria - Single [BEC]
Lauren Daigle with Preservation Hall Jazz Band Sleigh Ride & Go Tell It On The Mountain - Double Single [Centricity]
Will Ellis My Yesterday’s Are Gone - Single (independent)
Forrest Frank (TBA) - Single [River House]
goodwill., GodFearin & Xay Hill IN MOTION - Single [Syntax]
I.A.N. Pray For Me - Single [Syntax]
Lady Audri My Body - Single [Syntax]
Leem of the Earth The Cavern of Dark - Single [Velvet Blue]
LOUDWERX Bass Go Boom (feat. Magic & Bird, Andy Mineo) - Single [Artist Influence]
Malcolm Rue & A Tribe Apart Omemma - Single [Syntax]
Kevi Morse Is it too late? - Single [Syntax]
Nai and J Follow - Single (independent)
Lloyd Nicks Glory (Angels We Have Heard) - Single [Curb]
Blessing Offor Broken Me (from The Chosen Album) - Single [Capitol CMG]
Hunter Plake It's Beginning to Look a lot Like Christmas - Single [BEC]
Razzie & OnBeatMusic Brick After Brick - Single [Syntax]
Jordan St. Cyr Guide Me Home - Single [BEC]
Carly Ann Taylor How Glorious (Amazing Grace) - Single [Curb]
TobyMac The Hard Times - Single [Capitol CMG]
ZOEgirl I Still Believe - Single (independent)

Next Friday, November 6
ALBUMS
Big Daddy Weave It's Time For Christmas - EP [Curb]
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Come and See - EP (independent)
Meadows DESERT WALKER (CD) [Facedown Records]
Mystical Death Across [Rottweiler]
Chris Tomlin Good News Of Great Joy (Christmas Songs Of Worship) [Capitol CMG]
We Are Messengers Rejoice! (A Celtic Christmas LIVE) [Curb]
Mark Wills Grand Ole Revival [Gaither]

SINGLES
Olivia Lane Hark! The Herald Angels Sing - Single [BEC]
Tasha Layton & Dave Barnes What Should I Get You For Christmas - Single [BEC]
Hunter Plake Holly Jolly Christmas - Single [BEC]
River Valley Worship Come and Behold - Single [BEC]


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