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14. A Defensive Offender
Album: Hindsight
Artist: John Reuben
         
 

Did it make you feel good to break me down
Did it make you feel good to take me down
Was life getting to you was it all you knew to do
What kind of comfort did you feel by making me less than you
Did it make you feel good to know that your attempt to bring me down
Was beginning to control my perception of self
And that’s what you wanted right
To manipulate my thinking and dominate what I feel like
Tap into my thinking tap into my will
What causes human motives to be so ill
You pushed a man looking to make him react
Then you stand there smirking satisfied that I snapped

(chorus)
I’m no better than you you’re no better than me
We’re just flesh and bone looking for some identity
I’m no better than you you’re no better than me
We’re just flesh and bone looking for some security

Did it make me feel good to break you down
Did it make me feel good to take you down
What did it do for me to put your respect on the line
By taking yours did I find it to build mine
Hold my head high from the outcome
How come when I’m doing things I used to run from
Scrap the pitch fork horns and animated terror
Looked in the mirror and found evil standing right there
I guess this is the point when you see Satan in you
No form of retaliation was worth hating you
I take that view and then I eat my words too
I guess all along I was no better than you

(chorus)

Some want peace and some want war
So many hate without knowing what for
Some are naturally rich but spiritually poor
Some have so much but would kill for more
Some are unsure so they front hardcore
And try to dominate those that make them insecure
And I’ve been on both sides before
A defensive offender stripped down to the core

(chorus)


 

More Lyrics from Hindsight

  1. 01. I'll Try Harder
  2. 02. I John Reu
  3. 03. Hindsight
  4. 04. Big E Cypher Session
  5. 05. Soundman
  6. 06. Run The Night
  7. 07. Breathe
  8. 08. I Pictured It
  9. 09. 01/08/02
  10. 10. Doin'
  11. 11. Thank You
  12. 12. DJ Manuel
  13. 13. Up and At 'Em
  14. 14. A Defensive Offender
  15. 15. Pataskala
                 
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This Thursday, November 5
ALBUMS
Scroll Eater In The Mouth Of The Prophet - EP [Facedown]

SINGLES
NEEDTOBREATHE Free Fall (feat. Conner Smith) - Single [UMG]

VINYL
Chris Renzema Every December Vinyl [Centricity]

This Friday, November 6
ALBUMS
The Band JAREN O Holy Night - EP [Provident / Sony]
Big Daddy Weave It's Time for Christmas - EP [Curb]
Extol Aura of Decay [Solid State]
Grace Graber Sophomore Year (independent)
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Come and See - EP (independent)
LO Worship The Drought Is Over (Live from LO Conference) [Integrity]
Meadows DESERT WALKER (CD) [Facedown Records]
Mystical Death Across [Rottweiler]
MYTCH Leverage - EP [Credential]
Blessing Offor To All A Good Night (The King Has Come) [Capitol CMG]
Anita Ranae Dwell in Hope - EP [Rottweiler]
Tommee Profitt The Birth Of A King: Live In Concert (Deluxe) [Capitol CMG]
Sleeping At Last Atlas: Sustain - EP (independent)
Chris Tomlin Good News Of Great Joy (Christmas Songs Of Worship) [Capitol CMG]
We Are Messengers Rejoice! (A Celtic Christmas Live) [Curb]
Mark Wills Grand Ole Revival [Gaither]

SINGLES
Bryan Andrew Wilson, Lola Falana O Holy Night! - Single (independent)
Steven Curtis Chapman 10,000 Reasons/Greater Things - Single [The Fuel]
The Choir Room Better Than This (feat. Dorinda Clark-Cole) - Single [Centricity]
Me'Kayla De'Siree Hands On Me - Single [Motown Gospel]
Dise Prevail - Single (independent)
Dragons & Astronauts On The First Day Of Christmas (I Wrote A Song In D) - Single (independent)
Elan Brio, Illustrate Reactors - Single [Polished Arrow]
Forrest Frank Go! Go! Go! (feat. Lecrae & KB) - Single [River House]
Garrett & Kate Serban O Come All Ye Faithful / All Hail King Jesus - Single [Bethel]
Ellie Holcomb Waterfalling - Single [Capitol CMG]
Olivia Lane Hark! The Herald Angels Sing - Single [BEC]
Tasha Layton & Dave Barnes What Should I Get You For Christmas - Single [BEC]
Blessing Offor The King Has Come - Single [Capitol CMG]
Hunter Plake Holly Jolly Christmas - Single [BEC]
Presence Music The Darkness Didn't Know - Single [Syntax]
River Valley Worship Come and Behold - Single [BEC]
Allan Scott Loser - Single [DREAM]
SEU Worship SEU Worship releases “Wild Rushing Wind (Viento Recio) - Single [Provident]
Tae Lamar, YP aka Young Paul The Re-Up - Single [Polished Arrow]
Vineyard Worship Jesus Our Christ - Single [Vineyard]
Phil Wickham, CeCe Winans Peace on Earth - Single [Fair Trade]

VINYL
Meadows DESERT WALKER Vinyl [Facedown]

Next Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
Anberlin Currency [Equal Vision]

Next Friday, November 13
ALBUMS
Blanca A Christmas To Remember [Curb]
Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
Lily Hooten Promise Land [Anotherland]
outr.cty Green Skies, Blue Grass [Syntax]
Jackie Hill Perry Still Blameless (Deluxe) [Velvet Blue]
Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

SINGLES
Chris Caro 10 YEARS IN A MINUTE - Single [Syntax]
Cutright The Curtain - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Feliz Fast - Single [Centricity]
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

VINYL
Anberlin Currency Vinyl [Equal Vision]

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