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Awake (Deluxe Edition) cover
02. Monster
Album: Awake (Deluxe Edition)
Artist: Skillet
         
 

V1
The secret side of me
I never let you see
I keep it caged but I can't control it
So stay away from me
The beast is ugly
I feel the rage and I just can't hold it

It's scratching on the walls
In the closet, in the halls
It comes awake and I can't control it
Hiding under the bed
In my body, in my head
Why won't somebody come and save me from this
make it end

Chorus
I feel it deep within
It's just beneath the skin
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I hate what I've become
The nightmare's just begun
I must confess that I feel like a monster
I feel like a monster

V2
My secret side I keep
Hid under lock and key
I keep it caged but I can't control it
'Cause if I let him out
He'll tear me up, break me down
Why won't somebody come and save me from this make it end

Bridge:
It's hiding in the dark
Its teeth are razor sharp
There's no escape for me
It wants my soul it wants my heart

No one can hear me scream
Maybe it's just a dream
Or maybe it's inside of me
Stop this monster


(John L. Cooper/ Gavin Brown)

Behind the Song:
"It’s a song about being fake and putting on a face for people that’s not the real you. But it’s basically about the nature of sin and the nature of the divine, which is the duel nature we have as Christians. Everyday we have to strive to throw away the old and be that new person in Christ." - John Cooper (Skillet)

 

More Lyrics from Awake (Deluxe Edition)

  1. 01. Hero
  2. 02. Monster
  3. 03. Don't Wake Me
  4. 04. Awake And Alive
  5. 05. One Day Too Late
  6. 06. It's Not Me It's You
  7. 07. Should've When You Could've
  8. 08. Believe
  9. 09. Forgiven
  10. 10. Sometimes
  11. 11. Never Surrender
  12. 12. Lucy
  13. 13. Dead Inside (Deluxe Bonus Track)
  14. 14. Would It Matter (Deluxe Bonus Track)
                 
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VINYL
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ALBUMS
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