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04. What I've Become
Album: Death By Admiration
Artist: Seventh Day Slumber
         
 

Another night I'm all alone
Peeling my skin down to the bone
My eyes becoming bloodshot from the hands around my throat

I regurgitate myself
So I can eat it up again
I've got an appetite for self abuse
The story never ends

Sometimes I build myself up
So I can tear me down again
I never thought I'd get this low
I hate what I've become

Pushing myself until I break
Until my body starts to shake
A game to see just how much I can take
Before I fade away

I trace my scars
To remind me it's real
Becoming numb
I cannot feel

Sometimes I build myself up
So I can tear me down again
I never thought I'd get this low
I hate what I've become

Breaking down again
Breaking me
This weight is like an avalanche

Breaking down again
Crushing me
This weight feels like an avalanche

Sometimes I build myself up
So I can tear me down again
I never thought I'd get this low
I hate what I've become

Running from the pain
God, am I too late?
Oh, come and open up my eyes
I give it all to You tonight

Starting to wear thin
Make me whole again
These chains have kept me here too long
I'm coming home where I belong!


 

More Lyrics from Death By Admiration

  1. 01. Death By Admiration
  2. 02. Fatal Love
  3. 03. Solemn Oath
  4. 04. What I've Become
  5. 05. Halos
  6. 06. Snake Mouth
  7. 07. Light The Way
  8. 08. Landmines
  9. 09. Some Things Never Change
  10. 10. Can't Say Sorry Enough
                 
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This Tuesday, November 10
SINGLES
Seth Davey A New Dawn - Single (independent)

This Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
Anberlin Currency [Equal Vision]

This Friday, November 13
ALBUMS
Blanca A Christmas To Remember [Curb]
Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
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Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

SINGLES
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Cutright The Curtain - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Feliz Fast - Single [Centricity]
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Amelia Wells At Your Feet - Single [Hope Lane]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

VINYL
Anberlin Currency Vinyl [Equal Vision]

Next Thursday, November 19
ALBUMS
NEEDTOBREATHE The Long Surrender and The Fellow Passengers of Pain [UMG]

Next Friday, November 20
ALBUMS
Gabrielle Lovelace The Secret of Christmas [Old Bear]
Mountains in the Sea Breakthrough - EP [Dream]
New Wine Worship Ready For More - EP (independent)
The Rogers Family Let's Sing a Song About Jesus [Horizon]
Will Morrison, Calm Worship Collective Christmas Music - Instrumental Piano Holiday Songs (independent)

SINGLES
Francesca Battistelli Messiah (Cinematic) - Single [Curb]
Gracie Binion O Holy Night - Single [BEC]
John Long love deep - Single (independent)
Chandler Marie Merry Christmas Mary - Single (independent)
Hunter Plake Silent Night - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante PRAISE DANCE! - Single [Dream]
Run51 Wishlist - Single [Dream]
Mike Weaver Homecoming - Single [Curb]

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