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I Call This Abandonment cover
05. The Killer Is Me
Album: I Call This Abandonment
Artist: Chasing Victory
         
 

When you speak, you might as well be spitting in my face
I wish you weren't so beautiful
Your eyes never cease to follow me
But I'm desperate and it's definite
That I'll give in to the power of my weaknesses
It's so obvious
This could be a gun pointed at me
Should I move or should I take this
When these angels leave
Please don't tell me that you love me
'Cause I know it won't be real
I wish I wasn't there
You're coming in between the flowers and the grave
You're coming in between him and me
But my arms are tired
You know there's only one escape girl, it's not you
All these soldiers with their whips
Oh my God I'm giving them the cue
You can bet that I'll throw it all away for her tonight
I'm oh so human and I am losing every second of this fight
Oh I almost forgot that I'm sorry
And I take back every word I said
You never learn
You seem to notice all these broken pieces


 

More Lyrics from I Call This Abandonment

  1. 01. Oceans Away
  2. 02. Unrequited Love
  3. 03. The Night Your Guardian Fell Asleep
  4. 04. A Taste Of Your Own Medicine
  5. 05. The Killer Is Me
  6. 06. First Steps To Recovery
  7. 07. Pre-Empty Nest Syndrome
  8. 08. Suspects, Alibis, And Partners In Crime
  9. 09. The Real Version Of You
  10. 10. Ascension And Escape
  11. 11. Speak Easy
                 
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This Tuesday, November 10
SINGLES
Seth Davey A New Dawn - Single (independent)

This Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
Anberlin Currency [Equal Vision]

This Friday, November 13
ALBUMS
Blanca A Christmas To Remember [Curb]
Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
Lily Hooten Promise Land [Anotherland]
The Lofi Christian & Commons Worship The Commons Lofi (independent)
outr.cty Green Skies, Blue Grass [Syntax]
Jackie Hill Perry Still Blameless (Deluxe) [Velvet Blue]
Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

SINGLES
Chris Caro 10 YEARS IN A MINUTE - Single [Syntax]
Cutright The Curtain - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Feliz Fast - Single [Centricity]
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Amelia Wells At Your Feet - Single [Hope Lane]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

VINYL
Anberlin Currency Vinyl [Equal Vision]

Next Thursday, November 19
ALBUMS
NEEDTOBREATHE The Long Surrender and The Fellow Passengers of Pain [UMG]

Next Friday, November 20
ALBUMS
Gabrielle Lovelace The Secret of Christmas [Old Bear]
Mountains in the Sea Breakthrough - EP [Dream]
New Wine Worship Ready For More - EP (independent)
The Rogers Family Let's Sing a Song About Jesus [Horizon]
Will Morrison, Calm Worship Collective Christmas Music - Instrumental Piano Holiday Songs (independent)

SINGLES
Francesca Battistelli Messiah (Cinematic) - Single [Curb]
Gracie Binion O Holy Night - Single [BEC]
John Long love deep - Single (independent)
Chandler Marie Merry Christmas Mary - Single (independent)
Hunter Plake Silent Night - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante PRAISE DANCE! - Single [Dream]
Run51 Wishlist - Single [Dream]
Mike Weaver Homecoming - Single [Curb]

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