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The Search cover
08. When I Grow Up
Album: The Search
Artist: NF
         
 

Yeah, when I grow up, you know what I wanna be?
Take a seat, let me tell you my ridiculous dreams
I wanna rap, yeah, I know it's hard to believe
And I can tell you're already thinkin' I will never succeed
But I'm okay with it, I admit the lyrics are weak
I've been workin' on 'em, I'll be good eventually
I understand you gotta crawl before you get to your feet
But I been running for a while, they ain't ready for me, ahh
I know this prolly isn't really realistic
And honestly, I might not ever make a difference
But that don't make a difference, I'ma have to risk it
I've been crunchin' numbers, you ain't gotta be a mathematician
To see the odds ain't rootin' for me
I can't lie though, it's kinda how I like it to be
The underdog, yeah, you prolly think you know what I mean
But what I'm saying is they ever push me, I'm gonna swing, yeah
I could go to college, get in debt like everybody else
Graduate and prolly get a job that doesn't pay the bills
That don't make a lot of sense to me, forget the Happy Meals
I don't like the dollar menu, I would rather make a meal
Huh? Make a mil'? Nah, I said make a meal
Home-cookin', get the grill, how you want it? Pretty well?
Everything I see is overdone to me, I'm not Adele
But I'ma get a record deal and say hello to mass appeal

When I grow up, I just want to pay my bills
Rappin' about the way I feel (Oh, yeah)
I just want to make a couple mil'
Leave it to the fam in the will (Oh, yeah)
I just want to sign a record deal
Maybe buy a house up in the hills (Oh, yeah)
Might not be the best in my field
But I guarantee that I'ma die real
When I grow up

Yeah, ayy
When I grow up
Yeah, yeah, ayy

I'ma make 'em notice me, rhymin' like it's poetry
Everything I oversee, I just like to overthink
Mockin' me, you pay the fee, no return and no receipts
Those of you that don't believe, quiet, you don't know a thing
Quiet when I'm tryna sing, quiet when I'm making beats
Quiet when I'm tryna think, sorry, I don't mean to scream
I just feel like no one really gets me and it's sad to see
'Cause someday I'ma grow up and show all of you it's meant to be (Yeah)
Anybody wanna hear me rap? 'No'
Come on, let me play a couple tracks, 'No'
Come on, I can spit it really fast, 'No'
You think I should throw this in the trash? 'No'
Tricked ya; haters, go away before I hit ya
I am not a beggar or a kiss-up
You don't understand? Well, I forgive ya
I am not a quitter, you ain't really think that, did ya?
Maybe someday I could even be up on the radio
Have a tour bus and maybe even play a couple shows
Everybody in the crowd singing every word I wrote
Tellin' me that I am not the only one that feels alone
Huh? You feel alone? Yeah, I kinda feel alone
Wonder if that feelin' ever goes away when you get old
Will I ever make it as an artist? I don't really know
Might not make a lot of dough
I'ma have to try it, though

When I grow up
I just wanna pay my bills
Rappin' about the way I feel (Oh, yeah)
I just wanna make a couple mil'
Leave it to the fam in the will (Oh, yeah)
(Leave it to the fam in the will)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I just wanna sign a record deal
Maybe buy a house up in the hills (Okay, oh, yeah)
Might not be the best in my field (Ayy, ayy, yeah)
But I guarantee that I'ma die real
When I grow up
I just wanna pay my bills (Woo)
Rappin' about the way I feel (Oh, yeah)
(Yeah, the way I feel)
Yeah, I just wanna make a couple mil' (Ayy, couple mil')
Leave it to the fam in the will (Oh, yeah, to the fam in the will)
I just wanna sign a record deal (Woo)
Maybe buy a house up in the hills (Oh, yeah)
(House up in the hills)
Yeah, I might not be the best in my field
But I guarantee that I'ma die real
When I grow up
When I grow up


 

More Lyrics from The Search

  1. 01. The Search
  2. 02. Leave Me Alone
  3. 03. Change
  4. 04. My Stress
  5. 05. Nate
  6. 06. Time
  7. 07. Returns
  8. 08. When I Grow Up
  9. 09. Only
  10. 10. Let Me Go
  11. 11. -Interlude-
  12. 12. Hate Myself
  13. 13. I Miss The Days
  14. 14. No Excuses
  15. 15. Like This
  16. 16. Options
  17. 17. WHY
  18. 18. Thinking
  19. 19. Trauma
  20. 20. Time
                 
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This Thursday, October 15
SINGLES
Anberlin TRENCHES (feat. Switchfoot) - Single [Equal Vision]

This Friday, October 16
ALBUMS
Alexander Pappas & The Lofi Christian HINDSIGHT (independent)
Josh Baldwin Worth Everything [Bethel Music]
Grace Frances Clothed with Dignity (independent)
Vince Gill 50 Years From Home: Marty And Me - EP [MCA Nashville]
Jamie MacDonald Jamie MacDonald (The Deluxe Album) [Capitol CMG]
Northview Worship Awaken to Wonder (Live at the Conservatory) [BEC]
Jenna Raine Jeans, Boys & Jesus (Deluxe) [Warner Bros.]
Ryan Trey FAITH OVER FAME (independent)
Unteachers Under Bright Sadness [Rottweiler]

SINGLES
Bad Plans i_just_wanna_vibe - Single (independent)
Riley Clemmons For The Boy - Single [Capitol CMG]
Dex the nerd who loves Jesus Holy Barz (ft. TNV & Bill B.) - Single [Syntax]
The Dryes Mud Room - Single (independent)
EJ Swavv Nineveh? - Single [Syntax]
Hyper Fenton Good Enough for Me - Single (independent)
Hannah Kerr Welcome to Our World - Single [Curb]
The Kingdom Heirs Until Faith - Single [Sonlite]
Steven Malcolm OUTSIDE - Single [Curb]
Lloyd Nicks Common Ground (feat. Harper Grace, Cochren & Co, Blanca) - Single [Curb]
PEABOD Ooh! - Single (independent)
Charly Perry In the Middle - Single [Gotee]
Sleeping At Last Parallel Universe (Philia) - Single (independent)
Slow Salvation Wait Around Another Day - Single [Velvet Blue]
Vineyard Worship & Dreaming The Impossible I Follow Jesus (Disciple) - Single [Vineyard Worship UK]

Next Friday, October 23
ALBUMS
Bleach Fox Den Sessions, Vol. 1 [Residence]
Alex Henry Foster The Fragile Beauty (Of New Morning Hopes) [Hopeful Tragedy]
Future of Forestry untitled (independent)
Galactic Cowboys What Planet Are You From? (independent)
Josiah Queen Damascus Road [Capitol CMG]
The Sean Coleman Project Apropos of Nothing (independent)
We The Kingdom Soon The Streets Of Gold [Capitol CMG]

SINGLES
Dave Barnes Christmastime - Single (independent)
Biscuits x albion. dawn - Single (independent)
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Joyful Joyful - Single (independent)
Keep Warm Like You (feat. Relient K) - Single [Real Fun]
Mountains in the Sea My Burden Is Light - Single [Dream]
Jordan Rowe If Jesus Lived In My Hometown - Single [Tape Room / Capitol CMG]
Tommis & Company Your Name Is Jesus (Acoustic) - Single (independent)


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