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The Search cover
08. When I Grow Up
Album: The Search
Artist: NF
         
 

Yeah, when I grow up, you know what I wanna be?
Take a seat, let me tell you my ridiculous dreams
I wanna rap, yeah, I know it's hard to believe
And I can tell you're already thinkin' I will never succeed
But I'm okay with it, I admit the lyrics are weak
I've been workin' on 'em, I'll be good eventually
I understand you gotta crawl before you get to your feet
But I been running for a while, they ain't ready for me, ahh
I know this prolly isn't really realistic
And honestly, I might not ever make a difference
But that don't make a difference, I'ma have to risk it
I've been crunchin' numbers, you ain't gotta be a mathematician
To see the odds ain't rootin' for me
I can't lie though, it's kinda how I like it to be
The underdog, yeah, you prolly think you know what I mean
But what I'm saying is they ever push me, I'm gonna swing, yeah
I could go to college, get in debt like everybody else
Graduate and prolly get a job that doesn't pay the bills
That don't make a lot of sense to me, forget the Happy Meals
I don't like the dollar menu, I would rather make a meal
Huh? Make a mil'? Nah, I said make a meal
Home-cookin', get the grill, how you want it? Pretty well?
Everything I see is overdone to me, I'm not Adele
But I'ma get a record deal and say hello to mass appeal

When I grow up, I just want to pay my bills
Rappin' about the way I feel (Oh, yeah)
I just want to make a couple mil'
Leave it to the fam in the will (Oh, yeah)
I just want to sign a record deal
Maybe buy a house up in the hills (Oh, yeah)
Might not be the best in my field
But I guarantee that I'ma die real
When I grow up

Yeah, ayy
When I grow up
Yeah, yeah, ayy

I'ma make 'em notice me, rhymin' like it's poetry
Everything I oversee, I just like to overthink
Mockin' me, you pay the fee, no return and no receipts
Those of you that don't believe, quiet, you don't know a thing
Quiet when I'm tryna sing, quiet when I'm making beats
Quiet when I'm tryna think, sorry, I don't mean to scream
I just feel like no one really gets me and it's sad to see
'Cause someday I'ma grow up and show all of you it's meant to be (Yeah)
Anybody wanna hear me rap? 'No'
Come on, let me play a couple tracks, 'No'
Come on, I can spit it really fast, 'No'
You think I should throw this in the trash? 'No'
Tricked ya; haters, go away before I hit ya
I am not a beggar or a kiss-up
You don't understand? Well, I forgive ya
I am not a quitter, you ain't really think that, did ya?
Maybe someday I could even be up on the radio
Have a tour bus and maybe even play a couple shows
Everybody in the crowd singing every word I wrote
Tellin' me that I am not the only one that feels alone
Huh? You feel alone? Yeah, I kinda feel alone
Wonder if that feelin' ever goes away when you get old
Will I ever make it as an artist? I don't really know
Might not make a lot of dough
I'ma have to try it, though

When I grow up
I just wanna pay my bills
Rappin' about the way I feel (Oh, yeah)
I just wanna make a couple mil'
Leave it to the fam in the will (Oh, yeah)
(Leave it to the fam in the will)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I just wanna sign a record deal
Maybe buy a house up in the hills (Okay, oh, yeah)
Might not be the best in my field (Ayy, ayy, yeah)
But I guarantee that I'ma die real
When I grow up
I just wanna pay my bills (Woo)
Rappin' about the way I feel (Oh, yeah)
(Yeah, the way I feel)
Yeah, I just wanna make a couple mil' (Ayy, couple mil')
Leave it to the fam in the will (Oh, yeah, to the fam in the will)
I just wanna sign a record deal (Woo)
Maybe buy a house up in the hills (Oh, yeah)
(House up in the hills)
Yeah, I might not be the best in my field
But I guarantee that I'ma die real
When I grow up
When I grow up


 

More Lyrics from The Search

  1. 01. The Search
  2. 02. Leave Me Alone
  3. 03. Change
  4. 04. My Stress
  5. 05. Nate
  6. 06. Time
  7. 07. Returns
  8. 08. When I Grow Up
  9. 09. Only
  10. 10. Let Me Go
  11. 11. -Interlude-
  12. 12. Hate Myself
  13. 13. I Miss The Days
  14. 14. No Excuses
  15. 15. Like This
  16. 16. Options
  17. 17. WHY
  18. 18. Thinking
  19. 19. Trauma
  20. 20. Time
                 
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This Thursday, August 13
ALBUMS
Various Artists Songs We've Been Trying To Tell You About (And Others We Haven't), Volume Fifteen [JFH Music]

This Friday, August 14
ALBUMS
2819 Worship For Christ Alone - EP [Reach]
The Arcadian Wild Make It Out Alive [Rip Stitch]
JusRzd, Cyrus Sonata, Mic Wise The State of the Art - EP [Syntax]
Keyodis Enemy Skulls [Charon Collective]
Poor Old Lu Straight Six (Deluxe) Limited Edition (independent)
Jenna Raine Jeans, Boys & Jesus [Warner]

SINGLES
A Tribe Apart, Malcolm Rue, Nicole Muwanguzi Speak Lord - Single [Syntax]
Atlaslight More - Single (independent)
AustinThaNoble Not My Own - Single [Syntax]
DOE You Will Have It All - Single [Provident/Sony]
Exline True Love Stays - Single (independent)
GLADDEN Free Fall - Single (independent)
KXC X Brenton Brown, Megan Cockram Hallelujah Jesus Saves - Single (independent)
Brandon Lake How Good God Is - Single [Provident]
Myles Maestro SHOUT TO THE MOON - Single [Syntax]
Presence Music, SAPHIRE Mess of Mine - Single (independent)
Josiah Queen sundays - Single [Capitol CMG]
Jon Reddick King of Heaven - Single [Gotee]
The Rogers Family When Jesus Comes In The Clouds - Single [Horizon]
Saints in Exile Wolf That Raised Me - Single [Syntax]
SIGNUM REGIS Back to Zero - Single [Fireflash]
Skillet Lift Me Up - Single [Hear It Loud]
TRU-SERVA Always Look to God (feat. Mike Teezy) - Single [Trans4mation]
V1 Worship You Alone, Jesus - Single [Dream]
Mark Wills The Baptism of Jesse Taylor - Single [Gaither]

This Saturday, August 15
VINYL
Mat Kearney Nothing Left to Lose (Deluxe) Vinyl

Next Friday, August 21
ALBUMS
Band Reeves How To Forgive [Centricity]
CalledOut Music The Room [Integrity]
MotionPlus, Braille Still Dreamin' - EP [Gospel Banquet]
Lauren Talley Walls (Part One) - EP [Horizon]
Terrian Mad Big World [Gotee]

SINGLES
Bleach Once Again Here We Are - Single [Residence]
ELEOS Anchor For My Soul - Single (independent)
Grace Frances Waiting For Me - Single (independent)
WallerCo, John Waller Daddy's Here (Journee's Dream) - Single (independent)


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