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12. Hate Myself

The Search
by NF



 

 

I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself

Yeah, late nights are the worst for me
They bring out the worst in me
Mind runnin', got me feelin' like it hurts to think
If this is all that I wanted, I don't want it, gotta be more for me
All the core beliefs
And every mornin' I wake up and feel like I am not worth it 'cause I'm at war with peace
I go to Hell, walk up to the corpse of me
Look at the body like, 'You ain't nothin' but poor and weak'
It's kinda weird
Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I pour the drink
That's more deceit, more defeat
Is this really what I'm born to be?
That's what you get for thinkin' you're unique
So poor, but I'm so wealthy
Need help, but you can't help me
What else can the world sell me?
Tell me lies, I still buy 'em like they're goin' outta stock
But it's not healthy

I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself

Yeah, late nights get the best of me
They know how to get to me
Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me
But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief
So don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful
What is success when hope has left you?
I am not a spokesman, I'm a broken record
Sick of doin' interviews 'cause I hate myself, agh!
Come across like it's so easy
But I feel like you don't need me
When I feel like you don't need me
Then I feel like you don't see me
And my life has no meaning, drain me
Hands out, tryna ask for love
But when I get it, I just pass it up
Throw it away and think about it later
Diggin' through the trash for drugs
Wish I could give you what you needed, but I can't
I'm scared because

I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself

I walk through the ashes of my passions
Reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket
Get lost in the questions I can't answer
Can't stand who I am, but it don't matter
We scream to be free, but I stay captured
Knee-deep in defeat of my own actions
Feel weak, but the peace that I keep lacking
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
But I can't have it
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
But I can't have it
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it

I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Hate myself
But it's hard when I hate myself
Hate myself
But it's hard when I hate myself

When I hate myself
It's kinda hard when I hate myself
I hate myself
It's hard when I hate myself

 

 

 

 

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This Friday, January 23, 2026
ALBUMS
Dragons & Astronauts 11:28 (independent)
JusJames WHIL3 U WAIT - EP [Polished Arrow]
Tim Lovelace On a Different Note [StowTown]
Jamie MacDonald Jamie MacDonald [Capitol CMG]
Various Artists House of Worship [The Fuel]
VOTA Back to the Start (independent)

SINGLES
Gracie Binion Hosanna - Single [BEC]
CAIN So Long Sad Songs - Single [Provident]
Dubem Lately - Single [Syntax]
Jason Dunn Divided States of America - Single (independent)
ELEOS Fool's Gold - Single [Ocean House]
Elevation Worship SO BE IT - Single [Provident]
Grace Graber That's Who I Praise - Single (independent)
Jonah Greene I Need You - Single (independent)
Griffin Mega Church - Single [Polished Arrow]
Ian Austin, Brice Davis Like The Prodigal (Come Home) - Single [Ocean House]
Amber Lynn Yahweh (Your Will Your Way) - Single [Sonlite]
Daniel Mulkey Pass It On - Single (independent)
NEEDTOBREATHE The Long Surrender - Single [UMG]
Troy Patterson Creating Something - Single [Syntax]

Warren Peay Gimme a Hallelujah - Single [Integrity]
Heather Suzanne Kingdom Walls - Single [Ocean House]
tylerhateslife mental health (heaven's remix) - Single [Syntax]
Zane Walls NAH UH - Single (independent)
Katy Weirich The River - Single [Wings]
Zach Williams Wait For Me (feat. Ben Fuller) - Single [Provident]

Next Tuesday, January 27, 2026
SINGLES
Pipe Bomb I Will Kill The Worst Parts Of Myself - Single (independent)

Next Friday, January 30, 2026
ALBUMS
Dreamers let love be your highest goal. - EP [DREAM Worship]
Kingdmusic JOY (independent)
Eddy Mann The Unveiling [MTS]
We The Kingdom Dear Jesus [Capitol CMG]

SINGLES
John Long The Perfect Love of Christ - Single [Ocean House]
Mainstream Worship & Josh Daughtry Fresh Start (Live) - Single [DREAM Worship]
Seph Schlueter Life With You - Single [Provident/Sony]


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