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The Search cover
18. Thinking
Album: The Search
Artist: NF
         
 

Yeah, growing up, yeah
Know a lot, but I don't know enough
What you doin' here?
Why you even showin' up? Yeah
Showin' up for tryna show me love
Why you look confused like you don't really know what's up? Yeah
Why you always tryna judge?
I know who you are, yeah
Why you tryna, tryna front? Yeah
I am not the man I was, look
Ayy, made me a promise, I just hope you keep it
I don't like to get involved with things I don't believe in
I don't like to hang with people I don't trust to speak with
If you tell me that you mean it, then I hope you mean it
Yeah, feel like I don't deserve you when I hurt your feelings
I'm vulnerable, you got the keys to open all my secrets
You've always been there when I'm low to help pick up the pieces
I know I act like I don't need you yet, but lately, I've been thinking

Yeah, lately, I've been thinking
Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking
Yeah, I have been thinking

Yeah, I wish that I was optimistic
I wish that I could trust my intuition
To most, negative thinking makes you a pessimist, but
To me, negative thinking means I'm just realistic
That's how I feel, ain't that a twisted view?
Claim that I don't care what people think, but is that really true?
Those the type of questions that I struggle with
That's the type of thing to keep me up at night
Wondering, I wonder if the pressure I've been under is too much on my shoulders
Who gon' care when this all fades, I turn gray and get older?
Yeah, that's the type of thing that I don't wanna answer
But just 'cause I don't wanna do it don't mean I don't have to
See, these are lessons that you learn in life
And we only get one of 'em, hope I'm learning right
I know that everything comes with a price
Yeah, yeah, everything comes with a price
Y'all got no clue what I have sacrificed
And lately, I've been thinking

Yeah, lately, I've been thinking
Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking
Yeah, I have been thinking (I have been thinking)


 

More Lyrics from The Search

  1. 01. The Search
  2. 02. Leave Me Alone
  3. 03. Change
  4. 04. My Stress
  5. 05. Nate
  6. 06. Time
  7. 07. Returns
  8. 08. When I Grow Up
  9. 09. Only
  10. 10. Let Me Go
  11. 11. -Interlude-
  12. 12. Hate Myself
  13. 13. I Miss The Days
  14. 14. No Excuses
  15. 15. Like This
  16. 16. Options
  17. 17. WHY
  18. 18. Thinking
  19. 19. Trauma
  20. 20. Time
                 
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This Tuesday, October 20
SINGLES
Philip Anthony Mud - Single (independent)

This Thursday, October 22
SINGLES
NEEDTOBREATHE Never Gonna Deserve Ya (feat. Evan Honer) - Single [UMG]

This Friday, October 23
ALBUMS
Bleach The Fox Den Sessions Vol. 1 [Residence Music]
Ernie Haase & Signature Sound Miami Live [StowTown]
Alex Henry Foster The Fragile Beauty (Of New Morning Hopes) [Hopeful Tragedy]
Future of Forestry Sojourner (independent)
Galactic Cowboys What Planet Are You From? [Cosmic Outpost Records]
JJ Hairston Anthems & Prayers (Live) [James Town Music]
m1L The Prelude EP [Polished Arrow]
Myles Maestro IDENTITY CRISIS [Syntax]
Melanie Penn Immanuel - The Acoustic Sessions (Deluxe) (independent)
Procyse I’ve Never Been Here Before [Polished Arrow]
QEW & Cyrus Sonata Chamber Saga EP [Syntax]
Josiah Queen Damascus Road [Capitol CMG]
The Sean Coleman Project Apropos of Nothing (independent)
Sidewalk Prophets Great Big Family Christmas (Live) [Curb]
We The Kingdom Soon The Streets Of Gold [Capitol CMG]
Devin Williams Conquer the World (Live) (independent)

SINGLES
Dave Barnes Christmastime - Single (independent)
Biscuits x albion. dawn - Single (independent)
Mark Bishop Unpack That Suitcase - Single [Sonlite]
Blanca Joyful, Joyful (We Singin' Out) - Single [Curb]
Elan Brio Airplanes - Single [Polished Arrow]
Chris Caro Hannah's Song - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Colle Worthy Of All Of It - Single [Bethel]
Matt Cooper Wonder - Single [QHMG / Quartz Hill Records]
ELEVATION LIVING ROOM BULLS & GOATS - Single [Elevation]
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Joyful Joyful - Single (independent)
Keep Warm Like You (feat. Relient K) - Single [Real Fun]
Lakelin Lemmings I Ain't For Everybody (Piano) - Single [QHMG / Quartz Hill Records]
LOUDWERX Bass Go Boom (feat. Magic & Bird, Andy Mineo) - Single [Artist Influence]
Mountains in the Sea My Burden Is Light - Single [Dream]
Naveszn Meadow - Single [Syntax]
No Vain Glory MOVE YOUR BODY (PT2) - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Rowe If Jesus Lived In My Hometown - Single [Tape Room / Capitol CMG]
Saints in Exile Haunted Nobody - Single [Syntax]
Skema Boy Worthy - Single [Provident]
Tommis & Company Your Name Is Jesus (Acoustic) - Single (independent)

Next Friday, October 30
ALBUMS
Beach Chapel A Special Place In Heaven (independent)
Kirk Franklin I Am What I Am [Uptown]
The Oak Ridge Boys Buried Treasures [Lightning Rod]
The Hyssongs We've Got a Song to Sing [Horizon]
Various Artists Songs Inspired By The Chosen: Season 1-5 [Capitol CMG]
Vomitorial Corpulence Martyrdomical Symphonanthem [Rottweiler]

SINGLES
Gracie Binion & Mitch Wong Gloria - Single [BEC]
Will Ellis My Yesterday’s Are Gone - Single (independent)
Leem of the Earth The Cavern of Dark - Single [Velvet Blue]
Nai and J Follow - Single (independent)
Hunter Plake It's Beginning to Look a lot Like Christmas - Single [BEC]
Jordan St. Cyr Guide Me Home - Single [BEC]
TobyMac The Hard Times - Single [Capitol CMG]
ZOEgirl I Still Believe - Single (independent)


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