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18. Thinking
Album: The Search
Artist: NF
         
 

Yeah, growing up, yeah
Know a lot, but I don't know enough
What you doin' here?
Why you even showin' up? Yeah
Showin' up for tryna show me love
Why you look confused like you don't really know what's up? Yeah
Why you always tryna judge?
I know who you are, yeah
Why you tryna, tryna front? Yeah
I am not the man I was, look
Ayy, made me a promise, I just hope you keep it
I don't like to get involved with things I don't believe in
I don't like to hang with people I don't trust to speak with
If you tell me that you mean it, then I hope you mean it
Yeah, feel like I don't deserve you when I hurt your feelings
I'm vulnerable, you got the keys to open all my secrets
You've always been there when I'm low to help pick up the pieces
I know I act like I don't need you yet, but lately, I've been thinking

Yeah, lately, I've been thinking
Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking
Yeah, I have been thinking

Yeah, I wish that I was optimistic
I wish that I could trust my intuition
To most, negative thinking makes you a pessimist, but
To me, negative thinking means I'm just realistic
That's how I feel, ain't that a twisted view?
Claim that I don't care what people think, but is that really true?
Those the type of questions that I struggle with
That's the type of thing to keep me up at night
Wondering, I wonder if the pressure I've been under is too much on my shoulders
Who gon' care when this all fades, I turn gray and get older?
Yeah, that's the type of thing that I don't wanna answer
But just 'cause I don't wanna do it don't mean I don't have to
See, these are lessons that you learn in life
And we only get one of 'em, hope I'm learning right
I know that everything comes with a price
Yeah, yeah, everything comes with a price
Y'all got no clue what I have sacrificed
And lately, I've been thinking

Yeah, lately, I've been thinking
Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking
Yeah, I have been thinking (I have been thinking)


 

More Lyrics from The Search

  1. 01. The Search
  2. 02. Leave Me Alone
  3. 03. Change
  4. 04. My Stress
  5. 05. Nate
  6. 06. Time
  7. 07. Returns
  8. 08. When I Grow Up
  9. 09. Only
  10. 10. Let Me Go
  11. 11. -Interlude-
  12. 12. Hate Myself
  13. 13. I Miss The Days
  14. 14. No Excuses
  15. 15. Like This
  16. 16. Options
  17. 17. WHY
  18. 18. Thinking
  19. 19. Trauma
  20. 20. Time
                 
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SINGLES
Michael W. Smith There She Stands - Single [The Fuel]

This Wednesday, September 9
ALBUMS
Natalie Layne Still Running to You - EP [Centricity Music]

SINGLES
Limoblaze Super Power II (feat. Rua Young) - Single [Reach]

This Thursday, September 10
ALBUMS
The Protest The Protest (independent)

SINGLES
Bleach Sun Stands Still - Single [Residence]

This Friday, September 11
ALBUMS
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Limoblaze Do It Now (Acoustic) - EP [Reach]
The Rock Music Not Alone (independent)

SINGLES
Philip Anthony Reminisce - Single (independent)
Johan Asgarde No Other - Single [Gotee]
Brenton Brown (ft King's College) Everywhere I Go - Single (independent)
Drea LP & OnBeatMusic Free Indeed - Single [Syntax]
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Kingdmusic Worry About Nothing (Live) - Single (independent)
Myles Maestro SOUTHPAW - Single [Syntax]
Charly Perry Masterpieces - Single [Gotee]
Matthew Plante HAND ON ME! - Single [Dream]
QEW & Cyrus Sonata Chamber Exit - Single [Syntax]
Saints in Exile Stay For You - Single [Syntax]
Carly Ann Taylor Something Good Is Coming - Single [Curb]

Next Tuesday, September 15
SINGLES
Grace Frances The Promised Land - Single (independent)

Next Friday, September 18
ALBUMS
Anthony Brown & group therAPy Full Disclosure [Tyscot]
Cory Asbury Outsing The Angels [BEC]
Franni Cash Here I Am [Capitol CMG]
for KING & COUNTRY the most beautiful colours [Curb Records]
Hillside Recording Proverbs & Prayers (Morning) (independent)
Living Again Living Again II (independent)
Joseph O'Brien What's Good For Me? [Gotee]

SINGLES
ChristianXXII Lift Me Up - Single [Dream]
Dreamers The God Who Goes Before Me - Single [Dream]
Josh Grove I'm Done Running - Single (independent)
Steven Malcolm Kick It To My Twin (ft. DreBreeze Da Godson & DKG KIE) - Single [Curb]
Lloyd Nicks Can't Take My Eyes Off Heaven - Single [Curb]
Matthew Plante GOD FEARING! - Single [Dream]
Xander Sallows hidden treasure - Single [Dream]
Allan Scott Foxhole Prayers - Single [Dream]
Victory House Worship Returning - Single (independent)
Whosoever South Y'all My People - Single (independent)

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