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03. Lovecraft

Punishing Myself Before God Does
by Confessions of a Traitor



 

 

Am I lying to myself,
Pretending to be someone else?
Will I be hated for holding on?
Will I be hated when I’m gone?

Breath in breath out
Drink in the air of doubt

Who am I?
Who should I be?
Forgive me God! What have I become?
She's drawn out the of worst of me (worst of me)

I put my trust in another
Only for lies to uncover
Not brave, not honest
You broke me like a promise

What did it cost
Everything I was, is lost
Breath in breath out
Drink in the air of doubt

Am I lying to myself,
Pretending to be someone else?
Will I be hated for hanging on?
Will I be hated when I’m gone?

Breath in breath out
Drink in the air of doubt

No death, no death
No doom, no doom
No anguish can awake the surpassing despair
Which flows from a loss of identity

Am I lying to myself,
Pretending to be someone else?
Will I be hated for hanging on?
Will I be hated when I’m gone?

What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity

I will not be defined by another
I will rebuild my sense of self
My mind and mental health
That is true wealth
Judge me, not where I started
But how far I’ve come
Our identities drives our actions
What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity


 

 

 

 

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