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01. Punishing Myself Before God Does

Punishing Myself Before God Does
by Confessions of a Traitor

 

Redemption is not just about survival
It is one lost souls revival
Would you call my name,
Or cast me to the flame?

Redemption is not just about survival
It is one lost souls revival
Would you call my name,
Or cast me to the flame?

It’s like a story that plays in the back of my head
Nowhere to hide, so face it instead
A voice screaming louder when you push it aside
Nowhere to run so look inside

God may forgive me, but I won’t
Forced to face my fears again
God may forgive me, but I won’t
I refuse to play pretend

It’s white noise in a dark room
Clawing out from your skin
Echoes tower over me, echoes tower over me

God may forgive me, but I won’t
Forced to face my fears again
God may forgive me, but I won’t
This suffering will end

Now I can't see my own face
It’s blinded by the shame
Would you call my name
Now you tell me everything
Is going to be okay
Would you call my name

Would you call my name?
Or cast me to the flame?

Fear is the tax that conscience pays to guilt
Please have mercy on my soul
Is the guilt that I’ve got, the good I didn’t do?
I’ll punish myself before God does
I’ll punish myself before God does


Now I can't see my own face
It’s blinded by the shame
Would you call my name
You tell me everything
Is going to be okay
Would you call my name

Would you call my name?
Or cast me to the flame?

God may forgive me, but I won’t
Turn to face my fears this time
God may forgive me, but I won’t
This suffering will end


 


 

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