Chorus:
How I wonder why I utter
Words so ugly, hear me stutter
If my mother heard me now
She might slap me, save me now
I’m a mad man in a dark room
Playing the piano, it’s my heart's tune
And I want you so bad
I said I want you so bad

You’re no good, I’m no good either, you showed me the dark side, I followed the leader, losing my patience, try to gain composure, I can see the storm coming like my name's Noah, can’t say I didn’t warn you, who warned us? What are we supposed to do when the storm's us? Where are we supposed to run to? What can I say? I don’t even know who I’m talking to, looking in the mirror I see unfamiliar shadows, looking in the galaxy I feel so shallow, my heart, like a black hole, wicked and deceitful, trying to do good, surrounded by evil
This time I will get it right, now’s the time for me to step into the light
(repeat)
The light is so beautiful, I close my eyes,
I’ve been burned before, it happened many times,
I can be my own worst enemy or I can blame You for tempting me, I got good and bad tendencies, tenacious and habitual, with bad habits and rituals, worthy of ridicule, I got no excuses, I’m pitiful, I get stressed over miniscule little nothings, just a drop in the bucket, I see a way out but I’m so reluctant, it’s time to swallow my pride, it’s time to get my life right



All these thoughts, they drive me crazy
Some of them are now escaping
There’s a spider in my head
And I’m afraid to go to bed
I’m a mad man and I’ve lost it
Won’t You please help me find it?
Cause I need You so bad
Oh yes I need You so bad, You’re so good
Your mercy is so good
Your blood, it covers me
It sounds a little dark
I’m walking in the light



Behind the Song:
"This song is a call for repentance. Confessing our wrongs and stepping into the light. We WANT things that are so BAD for us. What we NEED is forgiveness and mercy – so we can walk away from our sins and get our lives right with God." - Braille