I USED TO SHARE YOUR BURDENS / WE WERE KIDS OF OPPOSITE DIMENSIONS / TAKE IT FROM A KID WHO HAD A GOOD LIFE / LIVING IN YOUR WORLD OF PERPETUAL NIGHT / I SHOULD NOT HAVE CARED LESS / I SHOULD HAVE GIVEN MORE / YOU WERE MY FRIEND BUT I DON’T KNOW YOU ANYMORE / I PUSHED YOU AS FAR AS TO THE DUSTY SHELF / THE REGRET I FEEL BURNS LIKE NOTHING ELSE / NOW I’M A FREE MAN AND YOU’RE A KILLER / I NEVER SHOULD HAVE TURNED MY BACK ON YOU / WHILE I AM ON THE ROAD, YOU’RE DOING TIME FOR MURDER / I NEVER SHOULD HAVE TURNED MY BACK ON YOU / THE PAIN OF FAILING YOU I WILL NOT ERASE / NEVER AGAIN WILL I IGNORE THE WEARY / I WON’T CHOOSE COMFORT OVER THE SUFFERING OF ANYONE / NEVER AGAIN WILL I IGNORE THE WEARY / IT’S A COLD, COLD WORLD UNTIL WE LIGHT IT UP / FRIEND OR FOE I WON’T TURN MY BACK AGAIN, NO I CAN’T BE PERFECT, BUT I WILL BE AVAILABLE / FIVE MINUTES OF UNDIVIDED ATTENTION COULD SAVE SOMEBODY’S LIFE / HEAR OUR HEARTS OUT / I SHOULD NOT HAVE CARED LESS / I SHOULD HAVE GIVEN MORE / YOU WERE MY FRIEND, BUT I DON’T KNOW YOU ANYMORE / I PUT YOU ON THE SHELF / I REGRET IT LIKE NOTHING ELSE



Behind the Song:
This song is about one of the biggest regrets of my life. I grew up in Thailand. For a while as a kid I was dedicated to training and fighting at a grimy muay thai club there. During that time I was best friends with a kid who had a really rough life. His dad was a police officer but that didn’t keep his dad for methodically beating him and his mother. One day I found out that a main event I fought in was rigged by my own club for me to lose. My family took a trip to the states soon after so when I came back to Thailand I just never returned to the club. We didn’t have cell phones or social media so I lost contact with my friend for a while. One day he showed up at my house out of the blue with a motorcycle I knew he could not have afforded. I sensed he was up to no good. I however, was simply not in the mood for a social call so I was a total jerk to him. I blew him off and just sat on my computer playing civilization 2. He sat there for a few minutes then got up and left without a word. I never saw him again. Many years later my dad told me about how once when he was doing prison ministry he met my friend in jail. He told my dad someone did something to/with his girlfriend so he killed him. That story cut me deep. I was one of the only positive influence that kid ever had. I can still taste how bad I felt the day I turned my back on my best friend. That same regret has come back to remind me never to turn my back on anyone. - Josiah Hughes